Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
...and it still is. Sometimes I get this weird panic attacks out from nowhere. I'd be sitting, just reading a book, and suddenly my chest goes crazy. This happens to me almost often and then I'd be thinking about drinking or doing something stupid... Then this "attack" goes into my head and fill it with negativity to the point where I can't focus. I want to reach out and talk to people but then I'll realise that I don't have friends. So then I'll be thinking about why I don't have friends and then I would remember the things that I've done and I just get so frustrated with myself. I really feel bad right now and I don't know what to do or what to think.
I use to push people away from me ...I would say somthing I know would make them go away ....and not come back ...and I would feel bad about it later ...but that was the depreshion ..and somthing I worked on .very hard to change .............once you understand what you are doing you can stop it ..one day at a time but you need to forgive your self ....each new day is a new begining .......take very good care of your self ......I will keep you in my prayers ...God bless
I really think it's important for you to teach out to someone in real-time when this happens. Perhaps this journal was your way of making that happen and if so, I applaud you but I just don't think it's enough.
Is DH home with you now?