Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi everyone,
I've posted a few times b4. This past week has been really tough on me emotionally. I just can't seem to handle the little irritations and the jabs that people throw either on purpose or without thought my way.
I have been feeling insecure in my job, as a mom, wife, etc. I feel like I struggle to find joy, fun and meaning in life. Everytime I try to dust myself off and try to act happy something comes up.
I have overdosed 3 times on antidepressants last times was about 10 months ago. I'm wondering if that has totally messed up my head or what. I almost feel paranoid at work. Not really but I feel like noone likes me.
Friday, I went in and quietly did my job. I kept the door closed as much as possible bc I just couldn't deal with others laughing and talking about other things. Anyway, just wanting to see if its just me or if others have been there and found a way to cope.
I've posted a few times b4. This past week has been really tough on me emotionally. I just can't seem to handle the little irritations and the jabs that people throw either on purpose or without thought my way.
I have been feeling insecure in my job, as a mom, wife, etc. I feel like I struggle to find joy, fun and meaning in life. Everytime I try to dust myself off and try to act happy something comes up.
I have overdosed 3 times on antidepressants last times was about 10 months ago. I'm wondering if that has totally messed up my head or what. I almost feel paranoid at work. Not really but I feel like noone likes me.
Friday, I went in and quietly did my job. I kept the door closed as much as possible bc I just couldn't deal with others laughing and talking about other things. Anyway, just wanting to see if its just me or if others have been there and found a way to cope.
as for the little things, i remember when a friend wrote about having a spare tired and thinking, "i could never handle that right now, i would give up right there and then!" and thought, something has to give...
as for other laughing and talking in the hall way, i did much the same... the BEST advice i got from my therapist at that time was to "live a non-depressed life" (she meant "fake it til you make it") - she said something about neural pathways and other stuff that i couldn't really care less about...
faking it was SO FRIGGIN hard, it took every ounce of energy i had to fake it... but i did. i did it every day, even here on DS.
i stopped posting how i was really feeling and pretended to be a happy sappy cheerful person - in real life, i pretended everything was ok even to myself. when i didn't want to take a shower, i told myself that a "non-depressed" person would take a shower and forced myself to do it!
don't get me wrong, pretending to be happy when you are dying inside is pretty hard stuff - but something did happen. i did start to feel "better" - i'm sorry you are going through this, you certainly are not alone...
hang in there - and lets just all hope for the best!
I'm happy to know someone else has felt this way. And maybe, just maybe I can start moving past it.