I know there are some bad days but this is not the way to cope. Please do not harm yourself. Get some help friend either go inpatient or call a hotline or an app with a therapist anything but this.

Feel better soon friend.

:O what happened? I'm sorry.

I made a promise to some people that I wouldn't kill myself while they were alive. I've kept my promise, but there's no point to me being here. I'm alone, in massive student loan debt, and I only feel calm when I'm thinking of dying.

Do you have a psych doctor or therapist? I not please get one and talk to them about how you feel. If you do ring them and get some urgent help. No-one should have to feel this way. Please stay safe.

Cleric, I am sorry you feel this way, and I wish I could wave (waive?) away your student loan debt. The world needs more people like you, not fewer. Please stay.

come on mate, you can do this. Are you getting any help?

I am really sorry to hear ur having a rough time because i know it sux. Finically I am struggling too and that deff does not help with depression. It makes it even harder to breath... Do u go to therapy or anything to make things better for u? The only thing I can really say is relax, get away from the situation for a little even if u just go get a cup of coffee... clear ur head a little so u can look at things a diff way. Sometimes I wish i would take my own advice.

BIG HUGS

I appreciate that, but actually, the world doesn't need another person like me. I'm incompetent, I'm a terrible person. So many things that I regret saying or doing. So much time and money wasted. In the end, none of it mattered.

And yes, I actually do have a therapist. She knows my intention in the end, but that I won't do it until what needs to happen happens.

I spend a lot of my spare time looking up burial costs, suicide methods. I've found everything efficiently, a somewhat unexpected product of my education...being good at research.

In the end, I just want death. Nothing else matters.