So sorry you are in pain about your mother. I lost my mother shortly after I turned 9, so this is a topic I've had a lifetime of experience with. My mother was not a perfect person, but when she was alive I felt a type of protection that I would never feel again. I don't know what your personal beliefs are, but perhaps when you cry out for her she hears you. Or, failing that, you can have some quiet time in which you imagine her comforting you, and what that feels like. God bless you.

Mom doed jan 1st 2017 at 3 am

I'm so sorry for your mom passing. It sounds like she cared for you very much and that is a tough loss. Like gladdmatt said, hopefully your memories of her comforting you will begin to bring comfort to you. Your going through grief right now. Its a natural process. You will feel better. It just takes time. Sending hugs your way.

A few weeks before i found out she was dieing we were fighting.... I have alot of regret the way i treated my mom... It was always over my sister taking advantage of my mom financialy. ..

I told mom to press charges.. She would not do that... Wendy always took advantage. Of her

Thats ok. A fight doesn't replace a lifetime of caring. I'm sure she knew you loved her. Your a good son.

Thank all of you for you caring and compassion

giant hugs. i am so so sorry for your loss. your mom sounds like a wonderful person. she was right, btw, it is always ok to cry. please do so as much as you feel you need to. the guilt and the self doubt are so very normal when you experience a loss. please keep coming here and talking and take care of yourself.

Thank you