good news is the human body can go a long time without eating... bad news? before you reach that point youll be in the hospital getting a banana bag by IV. i get it though... when i'm in a slump i cant eat for jack myself... went 4 days once with nothing but some chocolate milk (yeah weird i know)

why do you feel that you do not deserve to eat?

I tend to punish myself, whether I'm at fault or not. I don't know how to break the pattern.

that behavior had to come from somewhere...are you seeking help?

Is this something new to you, or have you dealt with it in the past, as well?
I once went 11 days without eating, but that was back when I was a teenager. Just wasn't hungry.
I'm Bipolar, so sometimes, when I go hypomanic, I forget to eat for a few days.

But I never stopped eating because I felt like I didn't deserve to. Do you know WHY you don't deserve to eat, or is it just a vague kind of guilt/shame feeling?

Do you have a psychiatrist (Pdoc)? It's certainly worth telling him or her what you are experiencing. If you're starting to become anorexic, you definitely want to nip it in the bud!!!!!

If you don't have a Pdoc, go to your primary care doc, who will most likely refer you to a Pdoc.

Do you think you could manage to drink a few bottles of Boost or Ensure without feeling unworthy? Try to get some kind of nourishment in you and live with the guilt, if you can.

Good luck, Cleric!!!!! Don't let the grass grow under your feet on this one!!!! I hope you get past this soon!!! (((((Hugs)))))

You need to get to the root of why you don't feel you deserve to eat. And yes, I'm a horrible person to talk about this. Gone weeks, perhaps over a month, in the past, and I'll tell you, it's not pretty.

Do you feel that you don't deserve the pleasure of eating? The nourishment? Does food have some bad associations from your past?

While you're figuring this out, the shakes which Carla suggested would be wonderful.

I wish you luck, eating-related issues are a bitch. Hugs.

just want you to know there are many of us who care about you.......... and I get it........it's a way to hurt yourself......... been there........ like alot of us have. you NEED to eat........... you are punishing yourself.......... you deserve so much.......... I want you to believe that........ please eat........ and take care of yourself.......... starving yourself isn't the answer............

((((((((( HUGS )))))))))

Gaye

Hi Cleric,

My "parents" withheld food from me and my siblings when we were "bad". And we were "Bad" all the time. They also withheld medical care and any care at all.......
No lunch money when we were in school until the school stepped in....Needless to say, I do not have a healthy relationship with food. I used to starve myself to the point of blacking out........All because I was raise to believe that I didn't "Deserve" food..........This is on top of all the abuse that was taking place in my house............
I was a total mess..........
Did something similar happen to you? Why do you feel like you don't deserve to eat?????????
Because my dear Cleric, YOU DO DESERVE TO EAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please feed your body good nutritious food..........
If you don't, it will affect your mind, your sleep....everything in your daily life....................
YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO EAT

I'm angry and raging. I'm not sure what to say on here except to say that I've been tricked by a trusted person.

It is ok to be angry and hurting when a trusted person wounds you but I don't think you should punish yourself for the actions of others. I also have issues (physical) with food but without the energy provided, mood will suffer and things get worse.
Hugguns

Please, do get therapy! DS is a great place, and odds are pretty good that no matter WHAT is going on with your life, somebody here has walked a very similar path. We are great for support, but it takes a therapist to help you get to the bottom of things.

I am so sorry you got tricked by a trusted person.

Gentle hugs

I have a referral to a therapist in the area, but no appointment yet. I still haven't eaten anything. The thought of food makes me angry, that I don't deserve it. I blame myself even though I did nothing wrong. But I've never been able to accept this explanation. There has to be some fault, something that is an underlying reason. If there's no external explanation, then it has to be me.

I hope you get the help you need...........I truly do........ you have to eat to survive...........I hope you can find some help. it's not about you deserving to eat....... you are punishing yourself..........and I am sorry you are............ eat....... and know you deserve to be okay........... bettter than okay...............

You've gotten a lot of very good advice here and you should have figured out that you have our support.

I don't have any additional advice but I do have a question; what is it about anyone that makes them deserving to eat?

I dont think i can add to this either except i hope your appointment comes through quick because not eating has serious effects on your health as i found out way back when i was 16 and i felt that i was really fat and other people didnt eat as much as me so i was greedy, so i started to starve myself to ease my concience if you like but i was so wrong and ended up in hospital. You deserve to eat sweetie as much as any of us do. We care about you on here and you are important. If you ever need to talk im not an expert but i do care my friendxx