Oh no that’s horrible no one wants anyone to get hurt.

But I hear ya! I tried working part time more like almost full time & was also taking college full time for in that one summer and I still couldn’t afford a place of my own. I was staying at a homeless shelter the whole entire summer and believe me when I say I wasn’t even offered 15 minute breaks at work and I couldn’t take the usual half an hour to an hour lunch… it was new to me because I had not worked in years. I was a stay at home momma. I too wanted to quit ALL buuuuuut I knew that’s not the way to problem solve. I was referred to a local mental health agency to help cope with financial hardship & living obligations on top of the problem that drove me to those extremes, getting out of a single sided relationship with my spouse of two decades… where I became diagnosed with a mental health disorder. I hope you hang on to your common sense buddy. You are appreciated. And again no you deserve to rest and enjoy the fruits of your labor just like we all should.

I am so sorry you feel this way. During high times of stress I have felt I am only alive to pay bills and be a parent. I feel drained financially myself. It’s hard finding joy when you feel this way. I try to take small moments to help with it really. . Many don’t realize even small breaks help and it’s not perfect but yoga helps me so much and just exercise. Heck even a meal to myself where I can just think and only worry about me in that moment. I try to do things for myself because I juggle and manage so much. I feel drained emotionally daily atm.

Thank you both for the replies, and kind comments. It all seems so impossible sometimes.

Yeah I know and when one is at wits end that’s when bad mouthing our selves becomes like the solution out but that’s because no one has shown us any different to best or better problem solve. I’m with you both on sharing to problem solve and even share what really works for one.

Gosh Restful, I am sorry to hear that you are so stressed with the hectic pace of modern life. Have you looked up those websites from the government that teaches you how to manage money, and how to balance your books? Is there a way that you can pay by installments, spread over say a month, so you can pay more bills with the amount that you have? It sounds perhaps an accountant can help you more with your budget sheets. It's no point working 3-4 jobs a week, 7 days a week, such that you work yourself up, abuse your health and body, and die from overwork. Bills can wait if you ask for extensions and pay in parts, but family and health always come first.

I relate to your feelings Restful. I feel like I can't get a break. I am currently a caregiver to my elderly mom and just exhausted - and know its only going to get worse! Its depressing to think about.
Its very tough not having anything to look forward to. I know that feeling. It's like - is this really all life has? Why stick around? I try to imagine a better situation for myself but it's short lived. It's hard when your physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted.
I hope we have better days ahead. Not sure what that looks like, but maybe just knowing we/you are not alone will take a little of the sting away.
Sending you a hug.

Rest, I had many days like that. It is sad to feel that way and I am glad you did not follow through with it. Right now I feel lost too and wish that life would give me a break too. I mean I did not do anything to anybody, why is my life so horrible?