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iamheretoo
iamheretoo

I resumed medication for anxiety and depression last week. I feel worse rather than better. I texted my doctor to tell him. He says it can take weeks to take effect. What do I do until then? 


Nobody seems to understand how unbearable this is. I feel so awful that I am having trouble doing my job. I try to fake well-being around my friends so I don’t scare them all off.  All I can think about is getting away so I don’t have to hide how I feel but then when I’m alone I am lonely and crave company. Same thing with my relationship. I feel like my mental issues are pushing him away so I try to fake it. I don’t feel like I can be honest with him about what I’m going through. He has his own shit after all.  Only he won’t talk about it.  


Talking about it doesn’t make me feel any better. Nothing makes me feel any better.



nemo15
nemo15
iamheretoo, I can totally relate to what you are feeling. I am non-functional so I don't have the work concerns that you do, and it must be awful to feel like you have to put on a brave face just to be accepted by your co-workers, boyfriend, and friends. That is A LOT of pressure to put on yourself, and it must be extremely difficult to maintain that on a regular basis. And your doc is right about some meds taking weeks to take effect. And if you have side effects that make you feel crappy it makes it all that much worse. (I am currently going through a similar thing with a new med I was put on 6 weeks ago.) I am concerned about you having to hide your symptoms and feelings from your BF. You have to be who you are. You shouldn't have to hide what you are really feeling just to keep your BF in your life. That is a relationship that is based on dishonesty, and I can tell you from experience that this NEVER works out. A great many people don't understand what it is like to have challenges like us, and sometimes we are judged very harshly for being like we are. Having a supportive partner is what is best for you, and I hope you come to realize that all on your own. You deserve better. There is NOTHING WRONG with who you are, and you shouldn't feel like you have to hide this from anyone. Please stay strong and know that you are not alone.
Alexander429
Alexander429
I can relate to putting on an act, like everything is okay around others. Here you can be yourself. You are not alone. Hang in there.
Hugs.
iamheretoo
iamheretoo
I make everyone around me miserable. I am a buzzkill. I was told this. This is not just my insecurity coming forth.

I had to back off on my new medication because of side effects. I’m not having a good day today. Feeling tearful and panicky. Trying not to cry at work. Unfortunately I left my anti anxiety medication at home.

I know that this feeling will pass but right now I want to climb out of my own skin.
dzigner
dzigner
I completely hear you on all those matters. I cry every single morning when I have to go into work. I use to love it here been here 8 years. I just want to always be curled up in bed in a dark room and never come out. I have recently went back on all my meds. anxiety, depression, sleeping and I don't want to be on them anymore.
AnnieToman
AnnieToman
wow this is a bit confusing, having a person to talk to and truly understand you does make you feel better , at least thats what i thought. and the confusing part is you cant talk about it to your BF, baby, who else in the world then can you talk to that will care and understand you? maybe this is part of your problem? it shouldn't be that way, those who care and love you should always be willing to listen and understand. so is this the problem or is it your trust issue? is it you not willing to talk for fear of rejection? think about this, good relationships are built on a rock of trust and communication. if they are not they will fail. thats reality.