Short history, I have been on depression meds for up to 15 years on and off, just diagnosed with bi-polar but meds not concentrating on that, still concentrating on depression.

I have psy doc appoitment Friday.

Well had some major issues over the weeekend (see my other thread:
http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Depression/forum/Crisis-Center/15275459-scared-freaking-out-divorce

but I am tired, tired of medicine (which I know I need and it has been proven by multiple doctors) but tired of them not working.

I know you should tell/ask your psy doctor what meds to use but I have been on/off meds for a LONG time and none of them ever seem to work (or work slightly for small amount of time),

What I am on now is not working and I am tired of it (just the years of medication not working) and a lot of people say Lithium works well and once they started taking it, helped, was like waking up from a dream.

I am missing my kids childhood (even though I am there physically) I am not there mentally/feeling it. I HAVE to have that to change.

I am going to tell all this (plus some of the stuff from the post above) to my psy doc Friday and I always do what they say, wait for the meds to try to work, and everything, but I am tired of it.

Has anyone ever told their doctor what they wanted, or at least told them they wanted a more aggressive treatment? I am tired of living this way and with the issues above it is just making things worse.

I want to see what advice anyone else can give that has been in similar situation so I can go into the doctors Friday and have the right things to say (and say them correctly) to get what I want to hopefully FINALLY have things start feeling better (or actaully feeling anything).