OR IS IT? I'm 53 yrs old and I think over my whole life of being depressed. I remember being very stand offish on the playground in grade school and my teenage years were a nightmare. I remember much of my life not knowing what was wrong with me and many years self medicating with things like booze. AND yet I can say my life has been a blessing but if I were able to repick it, I'm not so sure I would. Figure that one out. In my 20's I ended up in a Mental Hospital with what was called a nervous break down, treated with tranquilizars and a little counciling but me and the doc were not meant for one another. How many know you and the doc should connect? ANYWAY 7 yrs ago, again I really snapped and this time I found a doc that rocks. Happy day!!! He took a lot of time with me to find just the right meds and for the first time I got to find out what normal felt like, at least I guess that was normal. BUT you can't enjoy the peak of the mountain with out going through a few valleys and since this time all my meds puttered out after taking them for so long. I've been one of those people who occasionally stop meds because I stay tired ALL the time and feel like I could soar like an eagle until I crash and burn. If they say May cause drowsiness or dizziness it seems...that;s what happens with me. That's my newest goal.... DON'T STOP MEDS. ALL this to say, after all these years....I've started new meds. It's been touch and go.... BUT I'm still here. Surviving Major Depression one day at a time. Today has been the very worst day I've had in a very long time. Please keep me in your thoughts. It's really hard....but I'm always hungry to have just one more good day. Peace Clark