Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Jazzy17
Jazzy17

I feel alone, like no one wants me here. Im 18 years old , and i've been battling depression since I was in 5th grade. From the bullying, to low self esteem, to just completely hating myself. I've cried out for help multiple times, but no one around seems to hear. Its bad enough that I have to come to website to talk bout my emotions , because no one around me cares enough to listen. Only then do I wish I had "family". But when you're the "oldest" living in the house, I guess you're forced to do more than the "youngest" although you get treated differently than them. My brother who's about to be 15, gets spoiled all the time. I'll ask my mom for $2 and she'll be like go get a job, but if my brother wants an expensive game, he'll get it. Yeah, he's younger, but even when I was 15, I was still told to look for jobs and etc. My Mom plays favoritism in the house, and being that I grew up with no family, I haven't had anyone to talk to about this. This environment I live in, just overall , makes me depressed and I have no one to talk to , so I turn to harming myself instead. 

allgoodman
allgoodman
It's lousy the circumstances you've been put in. Thanks for coming here and sharing. I'm in my 40s, but when I was 18, I was suffering depression too, and I wish I had talked about it sooner.

What kinds of things do you do that harm yourself? Have you done anything to do that less? For me, long walks (especially in nature) help, and I also like writing in journals (or on sites like this).

Looking forward to hearing more about how you're doing...
sweetjanny
sweetjanny
Of course people want you here. I have learned that I cannot let others determine my self-worth. I struggle with depression daily and have for years. We all have a purpose and we are all valuable. Life is precious and we can make a difference by touching the lives of others. This I know for sure. I hope in some small way by reaching out to you that I help you today. You are young and have a whole life ahead of you to fill with happiness and the things you would like to achieve. You need support and compassion. I came here for support and for me personally, part of that is also trying to be here and help others too. I am in a rut in my life and am here to try to dig myself out of it. I hope your day gets better. One day at a time. Start by being kinder to yourself for now and see where that takes you. Sending you a big hug!
Jazzy17
Jazzy17
Thanks to both of you for the kind words and advice. I have lived in an environment where Im always to blame and I have no one to talk to because my "family" got ripped away from me by my "mother" which her n I never had that daughter/mother bond. So its hard to dig myself out of a hole when its only getting bigger , day by day.
cc82
cc82
Kids are mean. I'm so sorry. I was bullied too and my younger brother was favored so I can relate. But I'll tell you something. Those bullies...just wait...you will come out on top bc of the strength you gain from these experiences. Sooooo many kids that used to tease me and sometimes beat me up peaked in high school. I think when life got hard for them later on they didn't have the same resilience and coping skills I had and sure enough they went nowhere. You're strong. And I wish I could have told my younger self that even though life is still a challenge with new problems when you grow up, you will survive and actually have an even better ability to preserve :)