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Love Letter

lonelystar26
lonelystar26

Aw man, I found a love letter from my ex. He was the first person I have fallen in love with. Finding it was actually bittersweet. After the break up I gave him back the stuff he gave me and asked him for the stuuf I gave him, then proceeded to rip everything in his face. I hated him for the next three months. Then when I started talking to guys I began to miss him. I would regret gertting rid of everything he gave me because I had nothing of him that I could touch. Now that I found this letter, yes I am happy, but at the same time I am so sad. I hate that we are just people that used to know each other know. I promised myself never to talk to him because he hurt me so much and things ended extremely badly. Now more than ever I wish I could speak to him and hug him. I have been crying recently because the hate for him is going away, now I just remember him as someone i used to genuinely love. I know I can't see him or talk to him, but I will confide to this letter when I feel like talking to him. 

billwfriend
billwfriend
Was it marriage ex or just ex bf? Big differences.
Hugs
Scrofula
Scrofula
When I had to crawl back home and live with my parents, I went through my old closet and found a blanket that I shared with my HS gf. I suddenly smelled her. After twenty years.
The bittersweet stuff is the essence of romantic stuff.
bridgie101
bridgie101
That's the problem with being aggressive when you break up; the guilt of how you behaved undoes the conviction about the decision that you made to leave because he stands out as the good guy, and you stand out as the bad guy. It undermines you.

It's best to be polite. It's best to hold fire. It's best to have manners. Because your destroying his gifts in his face has made it much easier for him to walk away from you, but much harder for you to walk away from him.

Next time, you will know better and act more wisely. And there will be a next time. Plenty more fish in the sea.
Lauriegirl
Lauriegirl
Can I ask what was so bad about your relationship? Is it really impossible to talk to him? Now I can't talk to my exes either. Was it that bad for you?
lonelystar26
lonelystar26
bridgie101 I destroyed his gifts on a Thursday. He dumped me after a dance. Then I went to go speak to him at his on a Monday because it was not clear to me that he had dumped me. I thought we could fix it. He simply pushed me away and told me to leave. He had a Halloween Party going on. The only reason I destroyed his gifts was because I found out that Thursday he was already dating a girl two days after he dumped me. meaning when I went on Monday, instead of being upfront about him dating another girl hr just said he needed space. He had obviously been talking to this girl for a month or more. He said he stopped loving me a month before we broke up.
lonelystar26
lonelystar26
Lauriegirl, yes it was that bad. Someone who knew us both was sending me harassing messages. I had to change my number. Then, someone said I was sending myself messages. I was in the hospital at the time getting surgery, so I did not have the time nor the energy to do so. Besides I am so bad with technology I don't even know how you can send messages to yourself. He dated a girl two days after. The girl who he had liked for three years. She hates me because I supposedly hurt her. Can you believe that? I hurt her? I know the exact reasons why my boyfriend broke up with me, and they hurt me.
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