I think one of the scariest things about the way you are feeling is that we feel SO ALONE. Like we are the only ones who feel the way we do. You're not alone, please know that. I don't know whats troubling you because you were not very specific. I am here though to help you any way I can

I just feel you dear. I have experienced that kind of feeling also. Sometimes its just about getting through the day. It is sad, full of misery. I get it.

I just realized once day that I am so miserable I could barely move out in my bed. And I start thinking and asking why. A moment of silence. There I heard a voice said "You already have anything you need" And that was the start of my healing journey.

I write my thoughts, a lot of prayers and a lot of big decisions happened a long the way. I traveled and work abroad. Moment by moment my life starts to unfold and I can't wait to be where I am supposed to be.


The feeling of being broken and damaged is due to the realities that is set by others to us. Because our reality conflicts to their reality it creates friction causing us to feel emotional/depress and crazy. I have come to realized that the end of the day what we really wanted is to be safe and secure, to be love and feel belongingness.


I am always searching, always questioning the life I was given. But I know I will get there. I wont give up.
And the fact that I can do this means you can too. You and I are no different, just different experience/situation but the same feeling.


Know that you are not alone, ask for help always, pray and pray. Find a way. The fact that your still breathing matters it means there is still hope. ;)

Specifics have never really been my strong point, my life has fallen ill of too many horrific specifics, so I often avoid them for everyone's sake! I thank you both for your encouragement, it's kind of you to reach out.

In the past things have been extremely bad, so I have realised that i lived most of my life in extreme survival mode, only now am I attempting 'real life' and I am quickly discovering I am simply not equipped. Boredom can be even more destructive than blind chaos sometimes.

I have felt that way to.............the thing is ...most people who haven't been through depreshion just have no idea just how bad it can be ....they think ..all kinds of things ....about us .... we are lazey ...we complain ....when all we want is some one to understand and help us ....to be rid of it ..........I had to take my husband to see my phicitrist ...so he could learn about depreshion and learn how he was helping me and how he was hurting me ......and that is what made the diferance ...for us ........I hope this helps .....take care ..I will keep you in my prayers ...God bless

I have been trying to cope, trying to do 'normal' life...job...relationship...that type of stuff, I have been drug free for almost 6 months. I battled a very very long time with addiction and never ever expected to ever get to a point of recovery, I just assumed that I wouldn't wake up one day...but I just kept waking up and then I really woke up and so here I am.

I was hoping some kind of life affirming moment might occur through clean eyes, you know...seeing the world in a new way...all that bullshit, unfortunately I am discovering it's pretty much the same but it hurts more when things fall on your head.

Apologies for rambling....

I'm just feeling so so lonely.

I want the feeling to go away now, I have really had more than enough of this feeling in my stomach, I feel like it's always been there...that sinking, aching sadness. I just want to move forward, and instead of just pretending to cope, pretending to feel hope...I want to actually feel able.

Ok, I'm bored of myself now...apologies for ranting aimlessly.

sorry you are feeling this way. I know this is simplistic but does exercise help? sometimes I can do nothing but try to do the most basic things to raise my mood, try to get a good night's sleep, eat well, take a long walk, take a long bath. the pain of the mind is greater than the body I feel but it seems like the body usually has more control over the mind, or at least a lot. so if I can't control my feelings I try to nurture my body. this works sometimes, sometimes it doesn't. being a human is so hard. I have felt the way you feel and do still, often. sometimes it's hard to figure why there is so much suffering and alienation. don't have an answer but don't give up. you aren't alone.

You need to kill that last sentence. The rest of it was good.

My experience of depression is a desperate need to be connected with, but an absolute lack of sense of connection. I actually think that isolation is part of the disorder. Have you tried any medication? I ask because it helped me enormously with this. :)

just saw your other thing.

The sinking aching feeling - it ends. But it doesn't happen immediately. You have to give yourself enough time.

in short you're being unrealistic. You have a whole new normal to create. :D That's a lot of work.

I'm not quite there yet myself, after 7 yrs. Feel much closer to it though. Most of the time I feel perfectly fine and I probably would be there now if only everything in my life didn't keep changing. How old are you? How long were you living life no. 1?

you are not alone in this and I know when I hear such platitudes I become highly irritated. I would that there was a solution for many of us. Talk therapy does not help. My family does not understand and I am rarely invited to family gatherings. I say something and it gets all twisted around into something I do not mean at all.
For the most part life is a defecation receptacle.

it has taken me a very long time ..but I am finaly free of depreshion ..I know what it is to not feel depressed ....this has been a life time jurney for me to get here ..I am on meds ..but am starting to go off very slowly ....so far so good ....we can get better ...is what I am trying to say .....

and I continue to do the work to keep my self depreshion free .....that is important to ...

I don't know how to tell you or even have an answer as when we feel so alone and lost nothing from a bottle pill or anything lets us get freedom from these feelings but I can tell you that in you and I writing this we want it to change so keep on keeping on mf.

I don't know if this is so much an answer to your question as it is a parallel observation. I felt a kindred spirit when I read your post, because I often feel like I'm shut out of my own life or life in general. My ability to make meaningful connections and be heard and understood seems to have disintegrated.
In my mind and heart, I feel or imagine so much love and connectedness toward my closest family and friends, yet I am asked repeatedly whether I love or care about them at all. I feel increasingly like I am misinterpreted, misunderstood, even invisible to an extent. I see people all around me expressing and sharing with one another the kinds of feelings I feel - seemingly open to a constant exchange of ideas and emotion. I just feel like I'm stuck outside in a numb dimension, and no one can hear me or feel what I feel. I've always felt this way to an extent, but in the past year, I suffered tremendous emotional trauma, which has left me fearful, unable to trust, and very withdrawn and reclusive. I've arrived at the conclusion that perhaps it is not others who can't hear or empathize with me - - but rather I who am not reaching out as intentionally as I imagine.
I know I'm depressed, and as a result, I've put up walls to prevent more hurt. Or perhaps I am being heard, but I am missing the cues? Maybe I need to reach out more loudly and persistently-
Anyway, I'm sorry that you are struggling in such a lonely and frustrated way: I can imagine your experience...and I wish you a big breakthrough, and warm, meaningful connections to others very soon! Just know that someone out here is thinking of you, and at least trying to answer you and extend an open hand in return:)