I hope things get better for you.

If there was a button we had to push each day in order for us to wake up (ie be alive) the next day, there have been days where I would not push that button.

I know your feeling, hope you find your reason for pushing the button.

Gentle hugs.

I have that feeling for the last 5 years. I would define it not as much as I do not want to live. People that feel that they do not to live generally attempt suicide. This feeling when person does not want suicide but it is hard to live. It is rather difficult to live. Have to push through every day. Waiting for day to end. In general I want to live but it is physically hard every day. It was much worse before I stopped taking medications. I litteraly had to push through every minute. 4 years after stopping medications it is better than it was innitially but it is still hard.

Your so funny....just like me...hardly do what anyone tells me and just want to vent sometimes.

Your vent helps me to realize the days I don't want to live....I'm not alone....I don't want to die either...just somedays are too hard to get thru.

Hope you have a better day tomorrow.

I understand. Everything takes way too much energy and there are no good feelings to reward us for what we do get done. i hope we both feel better soon.

I here you ....I will keep you in my prayers .....I hope things will get better for you .....take care ....God bless

I know how you feel, so much :'( and it's like pepperman said, if there was a button to push to not wake up, I wouldn't push it either on some days. I wish there were advice to give,, i wish someone could give all of us that magical advice that will make everything better. Maybe just knowing you're not alone in how you feel, will help make you not feel so alone. I dunno. I just hope that there's something beyond this life.. to make all this suffering worthwhile, in the end.

that is the problem StrugglingInSeattle...I am pretty sure there is more after death than this life...this life pretty much sucks...but ...but apparently it is better to live than to die...I can't really see it but that is what they say...heck, that is what I've said...problem is, I just don't believe that anymore...

UGH........ARGH!....I am so tired, that I just want to go to sleep and never wake up...

I can relate quite often, most days I wake up just feeling depressed so much that I can't imagine it ever going away, it seems to just get worse. No one seems to be able to understand how I'm feeling though, and I've lost already a handful of friends because of this. They call me "too depressing" "dramatic" "emotional" etc. etc. It's hard to bear it all, it's like if they just tried to imagine how it's like in my mind, they might really be able to understand and try to help me rather than hurt... but what can I expect from people who are happy and don't know the other side of things? Empathy goes a long way, it would be nice if more people knew it though.