I am battling the deepest point of depression i have ever been in, because of my abusive ex husband i have lost custody of my four daughters and the last two years have been so draining fighting night and day to get my babies back to me. If anyone knows about cps they are more of a nightmare than they are help! I did everything they asked and even exceeded that! I was for sure they were gonna give them back, but they didn’t. They gave me the option to get another attorney and modify the court order but that takes money i already don’t have. My ex husband left me with so much debt I’m basically working for nothing. Not to mention on top of all that, my adoptive mom she is terminally ill and she is losing circulation in her arms and hands now because of her getting beat up by the police in 2011. And my mom got her and my nana an apartment because my mom was talking care of my nana. Due to her being so sick this isn’t the case anymore and now it has fallen all on me to care of the both of them, full time. My little brother went to prison for two years, my step dad my moms fiancé went to the feds on parole violation. My birth mother which just so happens to be my adoptive moms older biological sister but she didn’t want me so she let her little sister adopt me and she is no help for her sister and her mother. And so on top of everything that is going on now I’m taking care of my mom and my nana too. I’m so depressed it’s so bad! I want my daughters and i can’t have them back yet, I’m just stuck. Oh and did i mention i lost my job at the beginning of this month because my mom had a stroke and was rushed to the hospital and my job wasn’t understanding. I’ve had hell and I’m so tired. I’m so ready to give up at this point cus nothing is gonna give at this point! I’m out of my meds and i feel like I’m going crazy! Need someone anyone