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dyinginside35
dyinginside35

As long as I could remember, I have always dreamed about love and wanted it. Over the course of two months, I feel like ive lost the concept of love and afraid I am giving up on it and I dont want to. I have akwats wanted someone but pushed them away. Im with a great guy and dont want to lose him. Whats going on in me. I feel like i cant feel love and i want to. Can anyone help. These thoughts started when people started to get in my head. I want how i feel back. 

TotalRegret
TotalRegret
Hi DI. You're post is so sad - What was your concept of love and in what way is it different now? Why do you think you push people away? is it everyone, or just those who get close to you romantically? Sharing your burdens here is a great way to get support from people who understand exactly how you feel.TR
dyinginside35
dyinginside35
That i wanted male atrention someone to love and care for me. To be wanted etc. Its different i think ciz a month ago i let people get in my head.i push men away in relationships and I dont know why. I have always wanted male attention or affection. Im lost
gregsbaby
gregsbaby
You sound like how I used to be with my hubz to be; I used to always try to push him away and he always told me that'd never happen but it almost did because I pushed really hard and said hurtful words and I almost lost him. I had it my crazy wired brain (MDD/GAD) that Id push him away before he left me.

So my advice to you would be just enjoy each moment when he tells you he loves you and he's not going anywhere. I wouldn't want you to lose him. You have to remember no matter how much someone loves you they're not going to stick around if you keep pushing them away; plus that's not fair to them.