Depression Support Group
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I understand talking about your problems is supposed to help you but in a way it just makes things worse for me. I hate opening up to people about my depression or mental problems in general because it becomes too much for people to handle and they leave. At the same time if people feel I'm hiding something from them or I don't want to open up to them they just distance themselves and basically choose to forget I exist. I'm with someone who has PTSD and I'm terrified to ever talk about my problems because I don't want to trigger them or hurt their feelings in any way which is hard for me. I trust this person enough to talk about my problems but I never get the chance to. I'm also constantly in fights with my mom even though I'm doing the best I can, yet it never seems to be good enough for her. I always try to see her side and understand but according to her practically everything is my fault. I have a father who more or less treats me like I don't exist(my parents are divorced.) I asked him if he cared and he said yes but he never makes an effort to be a part of my life. I don't understand why a simple text "Hey, how are you doing?" or "I'm proud of you." is so hard. Here lately my depression has been extremely bad, I haven't really been eating much and if I do it's only to keep up the appearence that I'm fine. I love food and art yet I cannot enjoy any of it. I hate being alone but it's all I can bring myslef to do. I guess I'm just exhausted, both physically and mentally. I'm sorry this is such a jumbled up mess, but if anyone has some advice I would really appriciate it.
You are not going to change your mom so you'd better change yourself, I guess. Your mom has developed a fixation wherein you are seen to be at fault. Fixations like habits are extremely hard to break or change. It's best not to argue. Just keep quiet when she launches into a tirade; then move on from there when it's out of her system.
You want your dad to text - he he : ) I don't know how old he is but cell phones and texting may not be his style. If you phoned him (swallow that pride - it's tough) or visited him more frequently, then I think your relationship would begin to be more what you would like it to be. Does your dad have email or skype? - that would also be a good way to go, if he lives very far away.
I pray that you will overcome, you will have the support that you need from your parents, and you will have peace as you go through this. Please update us, God bless.