Hi Angelica, I understand how it feels. I know it is hard and sucks but you can only do so much when you are depressed. People who say things like that lack insight and do not understand depression and mental health issues. It is best to be honest with those who understand depression or those you go to for help. Are you seeing a therapist/mental health professional?
I hope you start to feel better :)

Riley

I had to start over because my therapist is leaving the practice and opening her own office. I just had surgery and I found out I have to have another and I'm freaking out and I get that others don't know how to handle or help but I have tried to give resources and I get told they don't understand why I feel alone. I'm lds but the community just doesn't want to admit that it exists so I'm at a loss

I'm sorry. I guess I just need to try and get some sleep. Goodnight. I haven't done anything stupid or rash I'm just tired and my brain is getting more and more tired the more I try and talk about it. I will check in in the morning.

I know how you feel my ex left because she didn't want to deal with my depression she told it's something I need to go through alone, people who don't have this or never have don't know what it's like you can't just snap your fingers and get better, people say it'll get better or just smile and it's not that easy, I feel alone because no one understands what I'm actually going through it sucks for me it's feeling like I'm always doing something wrong but i understand what it feels like to have no one that understands

I know and understand how you feel. People who have not experienced depression, do not understand how it affects you. Are you seeing a professional doctor and/or a therapist? If not, I would recommend that you see a psychiatrist who will make an evaluation and determine whether or not medication is needed. They can also refer you to a therapist or counselor.

I now what exactly this feels.But you can stop this,only if u start listening to your heart.Like listening to your heart for getting a clear idea about which stuff/people you really like or pretend to like.The moment you stop clinging to stuffs that your heart never permits,the pain will go away.

I am seeing a phsyc doc and am starting over again with a new therapist and I am hating starting over again! I am tired of this crappy thought process and trying and still be wrong. I'm struggling with some health issues and I think it could be adding to my thoughts. I have pain meds and I have been thinking about taking more than prescribed but I know it's wrong and it can lead to a stay at the nut house and right now, I can't afford to go because I need to go to my 2 week post op appointment and discuss with my doctor about a hernia and how to take care of it.

I can relate. I was diagnosed with endometriosis a month ago and have been off work for almost 4 months. They’ve told me the only treatment for me is to take birth control that stops my body from creating estrogen. Which mind you I quit taking birth control about a year and half ago because it didn’t help my symptoms and it came with unbearable mood swings and depression. So now that I am on this new kind it’s made my uterus a lot more mellow, But I am off the wall. I have zero self esteem, I feel unworthy of everything, I get set off and upset so quickly over things that don’t matter that much but make me feel like everything in my life is pointless. I really hope it gets better for you. It’s such a lonely place to feel like nobody understands or even wants to try to understand what kind of pain you are in every day and how much effort it takes you to complete normal everyday activities. I understand and am here to support you!

I can't take birth control because I got blood clots.

You can't fix this externally, it's an internal problem. You can't put yourself in special environments. You can only manage your internal functioning.

You have to learn not to reach out during an episode into the normie world. Getting through an episode when every instinct tells you to share and reach out and talk... getting through it without action of any kind will show you something nothing else can show.

Write while you are in the episode. Review when you are out of the episode. Learn when you are right and when you are wrong, and how much you are right, and how much you are wrong.

You have to calibrate your system. You have to accept your system, learn it, identify its strengths and weaknesses, and then fine tune it.

Nobody else can do this for you. it's not easy, and those of us who have got through depression are always here to help. But your first place to look is at one of your episodes. How it transpires, and how you feel afterwards.

do you wish, afterwards, that you had reached out during? I bet the answer to that is never. Reaching out escalates the state. you can't feel understood in that state. You can't feel loved. You can only feel anxious, and like you're about to be judged, and like you've just put yourself further into the shit.

If you need to talk during, talk here. We're all past masters at this stuff and we know how seriously to take it. Or talk to a counsellor because same. But do what you can to steer clear of the normies, the people 'in your life' in this state, until the episode is completed and you are back on solid ground.

Three days is all it takes. Three days of telling people you're fine when you're hysterically, suicidally not. Come out the other side and ask: how do I feel about that thing that set me off? How do I feel about it now?

Understand how much of your depression is simply chemical processing that is sucking you in.