Hey Question, I hear how much pain you are in and I'm sorry you are struggling. Anger is a perfectly valid emotion and it's ok to express it in healthy ways. You're well spoken and thoughtful. You don't strike me as a failure at all, and I'm thinking there are probably some other pretty normal reasons why you're feeling angry right now, like maybe how meds and therapy haven't helped. It sounds like you're doing your best to get so many things accomplished. Hang in there.

Just leave everything aside(whatever work pending) atleast for 2 hrs. Forget about everything(I know it is very hard). Do meditation(if you know) or take few deep breaths( for 5 mins) and take some water and just do something that you really makes you feel good, which may elevate your mood. Now when you are relaxed slowly try to focus about work. You are not failure, It makes us feel useless but the truth is it is not.

Honestly I totally understand how you are feeling. It's just one thing after the other right. And no matter what you do it doesn't seem good enough? But you just want to stop and not do anything. I Completely Understand. I've been feeling that a LOT lately and not much helps it. But talking about it does and I'm happy you came on here. What does help me is that we are never alone in this world. Even if it's online we aren't alone. And it is hell right now and you want to give up but we are here for you. You are strong enough to make it through this. And if you need help someone is there. I'm always here to help or listen anytime

I don't feel you are a failure, you are only human like the rest of us and you react in different ways. I get those moments too but it is okay, we all go through it. Just take things steady, one second at a time. The battle won't be so difficult once you reign everything in

Hi question. When I first log on I see messages from others who have posted and your post really caught my eye. I wish I knew more of your story as I feel your pain. I have never had any luck with medications, they just do not work. As for Counseling, I can't find a one that takes my insurance and I pay for 3 different types. It's such BS. I won't go into my issues at this point as I want to focus on you. It does appear that depression and mood go hand and hand. Not all people with depression have the so called anger moods. I see it as frustration more than anything. Looking for answers with no replies. Looking for understanding with no acceptance. Looking for the pain to just go away with no ending. But there is an ending, it is called acceptance. I can explain that in more detail if you ever want to talk. One thing I really want to make clear is that you are NOT a loser and I hope you can stop feeling that way about yourself. No one is a loser and if anyone makes you feel that way, they need their ass kicked! It amazes me that with all the education out there about depression, there is still a stigmatization about it and such uneducated people. I don't know if it's because people can't understand or choose not to. You are not alone. Keep talking, share often, and please don't give up.