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I'm in a rut.. I'm restless, insomnia has came back to haunt.. I am very uneasy and vulnerable and really had no other place to go but here again..
its been a while but DailyStrength makes my loneliness feel a little less lonely when I'm in these times.
so Ima bring you guys in my life a little bit.
Right now, I am in one of the worst places of life I could be in at 21 years old. Where everything is one thing after another.. I've made many mistakes and those mistakes led me to my legal situation I'm in now.. but my health declined late last year preventing me from being compliant which could put me in jail for a little while.. and not only that before my health declined rapidly I was homeless for a couple months and ended up getting in trouble trying to have a place to stay which in legal eyes is not being compliant which could terminate my legal processing and I can be locked away for 3+ years..
I doubt many understand what I'm really going through but to know that tomorrow really isn't promised, neither is next month.. I can't organized, plan, or secure things in my life right now & it makes me uneasy to the point i lock myself in my apartment because I don't feel comfortable letting anyone know about my life and how I feel. I even hide from my gf because she had nothing to do with my issues now and didn't want to stress her out. I know a few women here would say "you stress her out more keeping things away".. but I constantly feel like I need to save other people from my own self because I know my life isn't normal and not as free as others..
off the legal sides, my health has improved but constantly oscillates between certain issues. One that's TMI. But I've given up smoking weed, I've given up drinking, I've given up unhealthy food. And I can say my body feels better but weaker. Less toxins more attention is needed before i am back at 100.. I used to be able to do 100 push-ups easy now 20 would feel like my shoulders are gonna fall off..
my money is constantly gone, just spent 3000 trying to keep a car alive which turned off one me while going around a turn. Fear and PTSD made that little turn off a nightmare.. because I've been in accidents and don't want to knowingly be in a malfunctioning car.
My mind is truly everywhere and I could keep going but I doubt anyone would keep reading and just type supportive messages.
But thanks DS,
for those who have open ears, hearts, and minds.. keep going.
im still trying to tell myself the same, even with a path with barely any lights.. just keep going.
I've not been in your exact situation, however, I do know a thing or two about PTSD and legal issues. When I was going through some horrendous times and didn't know if I was going to make it through, and I was separated from my family, I turned to my faith and a scripture found in Romans 8 - I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR! This mantra helped me so much, and still does. I remind friends that go through similar trials to remember the promise. God will get you through if you only believe and trust and have faith. I pray that you have a belief system similar that will help you get through your trials. I will pray the Romans 8 prayer for you that YOU ARE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR! - Blessings my dear.
@Dhits I do have a belief and faith and hate saying but.. but I've had a lot of trials in my life that makes me believe that I'm alone.. I try to pray when I can and let some things go but most things are an everyday walk to me. I know instant changes are once coming and I really do look for them everyday. But you are absolutely right "I am More than a Conquerer".. crazy I have Conquer All That Crosses Me tattoo'd on my chest but I still need to find my inner strength to understand why I truly got it. And remember why I said it in the first place.