Never give up a minute before the miracle.

Find peace as I have done and continue to do in God's mighty healing,WORD.

We have no hope in man. But in God, all things are possible. Man will always fail us. That,you can count on.

Put your eyes on God and live for Him. He is worthy of your attentions.

He cares for you and has hope and love for you. You are His child. May you find Him now

Please don't put your faith in anyone except your parents and yourself. God??? Of course this is faith, but understand that ultimately it is how you live each day that creates the path for the next day, etc.

You are 18 and have your entire life ahead you. Your emotions do seem real, but unfortunatley they are highly inaccurate and unpredictable.

Take a look at inositol. Its something my daughter is taking (over the counter) and it seems to be helping her keep an even keel.

Stay in touch.

doug

So, God did us so many favors when he gave man the knowledge of Psychiatry and gave man the knowledge of the chemistry of psychiatric medications!

Reaching out and communicating to someone when you're feeling suicidal is the right thing to do, unfortunately not everyone knows how to deal with that information and some can't handle it. There are many Suicide Hotlines where you can talk to someone a more privately while getting the support you need.

Feelings of loss and abandonment can be magnified when your Depression is strong and not being treated. Have you considered going to a Therapist or Psychiatrist for treatment? Severe Depression is not something that just goes away with time nor is it something that can be self-treated successfully. Therapy, medication, relying on yourself to work through things, getting your symptoms under control...these are all ways to get your Depression to a more stable point. I hope that you're able to check into some of them...

kat

Bridgie101, oh my gosh!!! I know plenty of people who love suicidal people! How can you say that?!

I have been on medication, and honestly, it hasn't been really helping me. I want to go up in dosage, but I can't get into my doctor for another couple of weeks, and my therapist isn't available for like 3 weeks :/

And Bridgie101, you act like I chose to feel this way. I obviously didn't. I opened up to the guy about my past with depression and suicidal thoughts, and he told me how proud he was of me and how he would support me through it no matter what. And when I started feeling sad again, he literally just abandoned me again.

Sorry you are in so much pain. For whatever reason your boyfriend couldn't handle how to help you
because he really doesn't understand depression. Only people who have experienced depression can understand how it makes you feel. Please don't give up. You mentioned you will be seeing your doctor and your therapist in a few weeks. In the meantime continue to talk to us here on this site. We will listen and offer support. If you feel like talking, you can message me.

Some people can't understand or handle others who struggle with mental illness. Just know that not everyone is accepting of our issues, but that's ok because it acts as a filter to screen people. The ones who truly care and are in it for serious reasons will try to understand and help. Otherwise they perceive people with mental issues as too needy and bothersome. Great, let them move on and find their "normal" kind to mingle with.
He is distancing from you in order to condition you to not feel that way or to not talk that way with him? Hah, maybe his idea of solving problems? What a silly kiddo. I would drop him like yesterday's trash. Dispose of the boy, find yourself a decent guy with substance.

I think most people cannot handle big problems. They have no training. They are afraid. One time a girl message me said I am good looking. I told her all my problems. She stop messaging me. Well, not me. I like to know people's problems. I was planning to be a councelor in college. So that means there are people who is ok with your problems.

Well first off to have th3se feelings isnt easy....been there while its true the idea of feeling this way for many makes them run for the hills you should be able to confide in a bf. My ex and i had this moment where i felt this way with so much going on and he was understanding.

So i am sorry you have to deal with these feelings that we never choose and him doing this. I havent read all responses but have you considered therapy to work on this....sending thoughts.

Yeah it is very difficult to be in a relationship with someone who is suicidal, and I once attempted. People just don't know what to do. It would scare me and I've been there. It's better to feel well again and stable before thinking about a relationship.

You don't have to have had depression to have compassion and caring for someone and what they're going through. There are compassionate, empathetic, caring people in this world that can be the rock their partner needs, be the sounding board, the strong partner they need to lean on and depend on .... but not everyone can do that. So, you trust in and take care of yourself, you be your best care taker until you find the right person that can be the right partner for you, the person that's not going to bolt at the first sign of sadness or depression worsening, ya know?

As for your meds, its not always about just a dosage increase, sometimes its about changing to a different anti-depressant....hang in until your Dr. appt and hopefully they'll be able to get you on whatever works better for you.

Take care,
kat