Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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lance139169 05/22/2011

I am being forced to leave the house I own and move into an apartment. I have many challenges ahead of me to make this happen, but the obvious first step is to find an apartment to move in to. I have done a lot of internet searches for apartments in the general area where I want to live, and I found one that sounded suitable.

Here's the issue. I went to look at the new place and the rental agent took me through a model of the apartment that will be available. I know that I walked through the apartment and looked at all of the rooms, all of the features, saw the lay-out etc. The problem is that even though I looked at the place, I don't seem to have seen it. I cannot for the life of me remember anything about it other than I did look at it. Can anyone relate to this sort of thing? Can the fog of depression be so thick that we can look at something, but not see it?

Obeylix 05/22/2011

Depression can certainly do that.
The house we're moving into was a mystery until I saw the Estate agents paper-work and I had looked around it. I put it down to the fact that it wasn't 'ours' yet, so paid it no mind.

deleted_user 05/22/2011

im thinking you were so pre-occupied with other thoughts that you just dont recall the details. or maybe the apt. is standard issue and unremarkable.

hugs friend.

deleted_user 05/22/2011

Yes, this happens to me to some extent, but that's because I'm always daydreaming. I once lost $50 because I was thinking about making a call while purchasing a gift card, then had no memory later of what I did with that gift card (someone found it for me later, thank goodness).

I know the amount of time elapsed is probably different, but is that along similar lines? Please feel free to clarify :)

Sorry to hear about this either way. I know I'm always very frustrated (and potentially worried) when I can't remember things.

lance139169 05/22/2011

Just to clarify. I looked at the appartment just last Thursday and don't remember a thing about it.

deleted_user 05/22/2011

i agree with what everyone says...and for myself because im on the outside looking in at the world, in my past ive wondered how people prioritize for themselves., and fill their day with discussion about what the decor -would. be like, etc .without any interference from their inside, i used to believe i was born stupid... but now i know im more sensitive...

Summerwind81 05/22/2011

I can relate to this. At my last job, I was panicking so hard one day that a customer had to ask me twice...perhaps 3 times...where something was. I literally had no idea she was standing there. I was lost in my little world of anxiety and focusing like a maniac on folding jeans (or whatever the hell I was doing) to keep from completely losing it.

So yeah, been there. I've been practicing living more in the moment, off and on, with very good results so far. Maybe that's something you could try? it's not hard, it's mostly just taking a slow look around and appreciating the little things. Just an idea.

Hugs to you...it's a scary feeling.

ZAZAS 05/23/2011

your mind is still in shock about having to leave you home.

lance139169 05/23/2011

Thanks everyone for your replies. I really need to improve to make this move happen. This is one occasion where I wish I had someone to take me by the hand and guide me along through the process.

milly17 05/23/2011

Wish i could help you Lance, they do say two heads are better than one and between us we may just manage one head ;).....i know exactly what you are going through i did it just today when i had a conversation with my mother and cant remember a thing that she said as i was stressing about something else:( ...good luck with it all and hope you will be happy in your new homexx

deleted_user 05/23/2011

Depression locks you inside your body and blinds you to everything external. My first encounter with it, years ago, was an eye opener. I suddenly realized no one could come inside my body to help me and I couldn't get out to rest from it. When I began to come out of it I could see the things happening around me.. colors, events, people. So now years later as I fall in and out of it and understand more, I realize people actually do this on purpose when they need to try to force themselves into recovery and rest..... occupy themselves with the things surrounding them. Paint something a different color, re-decorate a room or plant an entire garden.. in doing so they are depriving their brain of the 'food' (negative thought) it would use to obsess. I hope this gives you some ideas to help or understand what is happening, if not I've typed a lot. Hugs.

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