I know how you feel, I make a list then not do anything on my list. Keep up the hard work and we can get through this as I pray for it everyday.

I do the same thing with lists. I even make lists of "lists" I need to make. And, I hardly ever add to an existing list but have to start it all over. I've started thinking it has something to do with my belief that, if I have EVERYTHING in order and DONE, my life will be in order and peaceful; however, it is absolutely unrealistic for me to think I can have everything done all of the time - I'm a single working mother with a sleep disorder that makes it hard to function at times. Add the depression and anxiety, and it just isn't going to happen. It takes a lot of effort (and, often times, I can't do it) to make yourself "complete" things. What I believe is essential is learning NOT to beat yourself up about it (this is still a work in progress!). I have had to learn to accept the fact that things will not be perfect, I will have bad days, it is okay to have bad days, but that they will also pass and I can always start over tomorrow. I don't know if this was helpful or not (I tend to ramble), but, I hope it was!

I try to stick with a routine. Get up, shower, dress from head to to, clean house, etc. And, I do the same thing the same way everyday. It helped me. Now, I do take a lot of breaks and sometimes I just say screw it. But, for the most part, it helps me.

I did everything on my teeny little list! Somehow this list making relieves some anxiety. I know that sometimes the list is impossible but I give myself kudos for each thing completed

Hi M
I put this quote in my journal but I would like to share it with you in hopes that it helps you right now. Here it is:

If you are struggling, you deserve to make self-care a priority. Whether that means lying in bed all day, eating comfort foods, not getting your list done, crying, sleeping, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, TV show, or doing nothing at all - give yourself permission to put your healing first. Quiet the voice telling you do do more and be more, and today, whatever you do, let if be enough. Feel your feelings, breathe, and be gentle with yourself. Acknowledge that you are doing the best you can to cope and survive. and trust that during this time of struggle, it's enough.
Hugs GB