I am also new to this group as of today! I had an mental breakdown earlier and I'm actually really glad I found this. I hope it can be useful to you too! Suicidal ideation is very real whether you plan to do it or not. I too am scared to commit suicide when I am feeling suicidal. It can be really scary and painful to think like that. What I do in times like that is think of the days that I'm feeling good and worthy. I think of my passion and purpose. I just keep thinking about my motivation to make changes to society because helping other people makes me feel like my life is worth living. But even without that you still deserve a life. If you feel worthless and hopeless, that's okay. Making balanced thoughts aren't easy. They take a lot of practice. When you feel ready, try out a Thought Record. I used to do them in CBT and should still be doing them but depression ya know? Here's a link...http://www.cognitivetherapyguide.org/thought-review-thought-record.htm

Take your time. Even if you do a little at a time or even wait until tomorrow. Whatever you feel is beneficial to you. I hope your session with your therapist was helpful too.

Hello. What meds are you on? Someone needs to look up your medications side effects. There are a lot of antidepressants that cause suicidal feelings! I was on 1 and I wanted to kill myself. I was hospitalized twice because of the medication side effects. When I looked at this medications side effects, it caused suicidal intentions. Hope and pray you feel better soon. Blessings CarolAnne

Welcome to the group. Sorry you are feeling this way. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. If something bad happened to you, your family and friends would be very hurt and sad. You are an important worthy person. Continue to talk with your therapist. If you have a psychiatrist and are on medication talk to them about whether your medication needs to be adjusted.