Darling, listen to me - you do NOT have the power to hold anyone back from anything. Your life is yours, and their lives are theirs. In the end, we are all responsible for ourselves. If anyone is blaming you for their unhappiness or their failures, they are scapegoating and they're being so, so unfair to you.

It's natural for people who love you to worry about you, but ultimately, it's their responsibility to manage their own worries and their own behavior related to their worries. And the best way to alleviate that might be too talk it out. Please, please do not harm yourself.

Everyone has something they can offer others, and you are no exception. I know how difficult it is to fight these demons in your mind and to tell yourself that they are poisonous voices and that your truth and who you are is so much more.

So let us tell you now.

You deserve to live.

Being alive can be so painful sometimes but it's also pretty damn rad.

Don't leave. Think of the reason you reached out here instead of just going to end it. Think of what made you want to fight hard enough to come here first.

Don't go. Stay. Talk to us for a while. We want to hear all of it and we want to support you.

Be strong please... things looks dark and hopeless at this point but things will get better! Fiend friends and people that care about you to help you get by. It’s not easy, I know for a fact... but you are strong and you can do it.
Be safe, be loved!

I just wish one person was there.. I’m there for my friends and my family but the moment i need someone they just tell me to go away or it’s stupid or that im just playing a victim. I don’t wish for my mind to feel this way.. i don’t wish for the situations i am put in.. i just wish for a happy life.. one where i can get out of this depression state and actually want to live life. I want friends who are actually there for me instead of me trying to fix the pieces.. maybe i am crazy and have officially pushed them away.. maybe i am the victim of my own life.. i sure don’t wish to be but i don’t have any answers of why i keep going through this and why everyone around me ends up hating me and probably wants me to go away for good.. i know i do..

When you're in this mindset, it's so hard not to feel like you're a burden. I think we've all felt like that a time or two. I still feel like that all the time.

And it's moments like these when we tend to separate the wheat from the chaff, so to speak - there's nothing like a super low depression or a traumatic experience or going through life-changing stuff to show you who your true friends are.

Do you have even one friend or family member you might be able to reach out to and tell them what you're telling us now? Sometimes we need to get out of our minds and our broken hearts and hear it from someone else.

Even if you think you have pushed them away and that no one cares anymore, just try to remember that might not be true. Sometimes we judge ourselves very harshly and we forget that everyone doesn't think about us the way we think about ourselves. I hope this doesn't sound harsh because it's not intended to be but people can't read your mind. If you're struggling, let them know.

And if you can't do that, I'm glad you reached out here. We're here to support you and lift you back up and out of this.

You're not alone anymore.

@adh119 I'm sorry you feel this way but you really shouldn't. When I'm upset and tell people or someone to go away it's because of me and what I'm dealing with and they happen to be there so I lash out at them. I have depression so bad that I rarely leave the house but what truly helps is i have my person and this site..journaling, posting and reading how others are coping had helped tremendously. I pray things start changing for better for You! Every Life Matters and yours matter the most right now! What if tomorrow the universe changes and works everything out in your favor? How will you know if you're not here? Hang on to the what ifs and all the possibilities of tomorrow to get you through each day and night..my prayers are with you..stay strong!@

"Maybe I'm a victim of my own life" From the outside looking in I'd say one factor is your current state of mind. By the replies you have received you have many supporters. Sometimes helping others is a way of coping with your own depression. I'm not going to tell you to snap out of it cause your feelings are serious. "I just wish for a happy life" What are you doing to work towards getting to that happy state of life? The mere fact that you made that statement says volumes. Medications, bloodwork, counseling are all options, but it all starts with you. I'm not meaning to be insensitive towards you. I really mean that. I just want you to feel better. Hang in there. Work the site. You'll have some positive moments before you know it.

Listen its not your fault ok I feel the same way a lot of times and I get mad and I think the same way you do but after a while I know that if I make that desion it will be the last one and I'm not sure if you believe in this stuff but God loves you and people care about you don't give up life wont get better if you do

It’s just so hard when i try to do the right thing.. make everyone happy.. be a good person.. but every single aspect in my life keeps getting messed up. I’m trying to hold it all together but it just feels like it all keeps getting messed up. Just seems like everyone would love a happier life if i wasn’t here

If there’s one thing I’ve learned dealing with depression and anxiety, is that it’s ok to be selfish in times of need. Worry about yourself for a change. Do something you enjoy. If you don’t enjoy anything then try something that might seem fun or exciting. Never give up, never let them win whoever them may be.

doncornelius is right. It's about you being happy. I doubt anyone would be happy if you were gone. A happier life starts with you. Never give up to anyone especially yourself.