my mom asked me wat was wrong. and so i told her i just need to talk to my therapist and she was like why do u need to talk to her wen ur here...(apparently im suppose to be happy everyday, because im here with her instead of my dad) and i was like cuz i have PTSD and the flashbacks are bothering me like crazy..and then she said the thing that shocked me: that this still bothering you?? i was speechless!!! and i was like yea wat he did to me isnt forgetable and thats wen she was like he was a kid and again i said i was the kid i was 9 he was 15 and wen i was 12 he was 18. and she was like well i tlkd to him and he said he was dumb wen he was a kid...and shes looking at me like im the one whose taking advantage of him...like wtfff!!!! why is she justying this?!?! and she wonders why i wanna tlk to my therapist...i still wanted to tlk to her and she interupted me and was like lemme go in the showr im about to fall asleep on you...so i left and now im writting this...we also had this whole discussion thing on why didnt i tell her wen this was happening then it cuda stopped, told her i was scared and cuz he's family and she dismissed that too....then i said im soo happy to have you guys on ds!


Ps. mood still staying green today for you guys! :)