Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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JulesHopeFaithLove11 03/31/2012

well what can I say...I feek like Im forced to do this...Im scared...I want to live but am f orced to feel horrible and believe that the best thing for me is to die....but I dont want to...but I want all this pain to end...been talking about it for to long...time to do something about it...but I dont want to...but I have to....voices splitting me in 2 right now...want to live without pain...but voices wont let me and forcing me to do this....this must sound just so stupid and all over the place...but its how im feeling right now......just trying to reach out to the last tiny string of hope....where there is hope there is still a chance..or is there??...this is really mixed up cause there are 2 of us typing and trying to mess things up for me even more

WallyBear 04/01/2012

YES!!! You need to end this pain...........BUT NOT YOUR LIFE!!!!

There is Help and Hope And Love Here For You. No matter what the "voices" are telling you............
Suicide Is NEVER the answer!! Please.........I don't know you.......
But I care about you. You matter to me. You matter to your children,
your family.
You are important. Please...........don't do anything to harm yourself.
Recovery is possible..........I'm living proof.

CrossingtheBorder 04/01/2012

i feel like the voices in the head are really evil entities that influence all of us humans to do evil to ourselves. And I feel that people experience suffering people they wrongly believe that life is supposed to be easy. But life isn't supposed to be easy. For any of us. Not a single person on this planet has it easy. Enlightenment is when you accept suffering. Once you accept it as a part of your reality, once you stop fighting it and resisting it and EMBRACE the suffering, it will suddenly no longer bother you. This is enlightenment.

JulesHopeFaithLove11 04/02/2012

I feel like this is my last attempt to reach out for help..I am just hurting so bad...he wants me dead (evil inside me) and I cant stop believing that he is right and that the pain will never end unless my life is over....meds not helping...dr not helping...family and friends dont know how much I hurt and I just cant bring myself to tell them...dont want to make them upset or feel useless cause they cant help....if I just end it all then I know friends and family will hurt for a while but they will eventually get over it and be able to move on with their lives never to be bothered by me again...I am just totally worn out and cant see it getting any better in the future....this is what he wants and I guess he is going to get his way...and I cant wait till he just pushes me a little further and go all the way...then im gone...pain is over just like that..........BUT.....now a bit from me if I can manage it ,if he will let me have my say.............I want to live, I want to be happy, I want him gone, I want to enjoy my life, my kids and husband..............WHY ME... no one deserves this torment...GO AWAY

JulesHopeFaithLove11 04/03/2012

Im still here, feeling a little more at ease, but still not good...have pdoc appointment on 16th so will try to aim to hold on till then.

deleted_user 04/05/2012

Glad you are still here.

WanderingVet 04/05/2012

As you can see, the despair is temporary ... severe but temporary. Death is not temporary. Never take a life .. yours included. The next moment can be different.

Good has always overcomes evil .. otherwise, nothing would exist.

Be at peace ... avail to the Doctor. Show him your post .. printed on paper.

There is more good than there is evil .. which is why good ultimately prevails.

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