sevennnn

deep breathes; breathing is your oldest friend. I feel like Im loosing it most of the time too. Try to take it one moment at a time. I have terrible depression sometimes . . . Messy divorce, blah blah blah. No one wants to hear about my problems so I plaster the smile on my face. Im going for a walk now; that always seems to help me. Hopefully these feelings will pass. Keep talking/posting . . .

Stay strong my friend, maybe do some activities or hobbies that can help keep your mind off the bad thoughts. Definitely recommend you post you're feelings and thoughts here as it can help vent stored up thoughts and feelings out and there's always someone there listening and reading, it sure helps me, as sometimes I worry a lot and the feeling would almost choke me a little and gets me nervous and anxious. It's like being in the water, we're all swimming, some are deeper in the water than others, but we all gotta go up to take a breath of air once in a while to keep on going. Wish you the best.

these brain zaps are more frequent now this shit aint normal brainzaps music hallucination ringing in the ear all at the same time na something else is going on i cant figure it out thats whats pissing me off i should have been admitted too the hospital months ago not the ward but a regular one

Have you gone off an antidepressant lately? I read that these brain zaps you are talking about can come from antidepressant withdrawal.

I have also heard that withdrawing from certain psych meds can cause the brain zaps you describe. If you have recently got off a medication, can you call a primary care Dr or psychiatrist to let them know this is happening?

Hoping you feel better soon...

nope only been on clonapin thats it that might be the culprate taking something now for the music but its not working the ipod head lives on the gift and the curse only2% percent people on earth have it and im one of them some people got cured by tms the song playing in my ipod head is the geico commercial the final countdown here is the link too listen whats in my ipod head enjoy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iH1biQdyiQI

Lol Sevennn, at least you get upbeat, funny songs in your head, from what you've shared with me. Makes me think there's a guy with a real sense of humor in there somewhere. Hold on to humor. I look for things that make me laugh every day, it helps me keep in touch with who I really am.
Was reading more about the brain zaps today, and yeah, it could just be the Klonopin withdrawal causing brain changes. Also, even just extreme stress or anxiety can cause brain zaps, isn't that crazy. I did read though, that your brain can be retrained in a positive way, so it can be reversed. It may also just pass in time.
I am working on getting through severe anxiety and depression myself, and what helps me is to read daily positive affirmations, exercise (seems to increase endorphins and creates a "feel good" feeling in the body and also reduces anxiety (particularly feelings of my heart thudding all the time). Positive connections with others, in my life or even here on DS. You will make it through, remember, we are soldiers.

Im sorry its getting worse, but it will continue to get worse before it gets better, u must remember that- when u feel calm, write yourself a one line letter seal it in an envelope and put it under your mattress, the next time u cry or feel your losing it , read it- something that anchors u- u are fighting demons, but u cant win by avoiding them, if u cry, cry, get it out, your body naturally calms down after- u can think your clearest after a good hard cry. There are many thing u must face, that u don't want to- that's why youre stuck- its nature- all the emotional scars and blockages are coming to the surface in the form of these symptoms.
I can guess u felt unseen, unheard as a child by a parent or someone very important to u, they didn't believe u. Sevennn u must believe in yourself, u r a grown man, u must shed the skin that no longer fits u, like a snake, u must be your own father now. U must have your own back, and be strong for that more vulnerable side of u, we all have 2 sides, let the stronger side help the weaker side, as if u were a father consoling a young boy. U will come through this, maybe not today or next week, but u will, change and growth is painful, but the whole world will open up in front of u in the end. Believe.