Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Last Wed.11/12...I sat in my therapist's office slightly upbeat...I had just returned from my annual 5 day R&R and was still coming down off of that deceptive high.
My therapist warned me...that she was worried about what would happen when reality and the depression hit as it would...I worried a little too-then forgot about it.
Well...it took about a week...and now it's back...I spent all day yesterday in bed sleeping...and when I was awake, I was sad...thinking and rethinking about all the negative realities in my life...all the things I have to do and don't want to do...thinking about how tired I am and how I still have a month left in school this semester!!!...thinking about how I haven't done anything that I have to do...UGH!
I just don't know what to do...I am so miserable and depressed that I just want to die...but I can't...I am back to that place where I find no joy in anything...no hope...I am just here...and don't want to be!
While I was on R&R, I was just faking it...I was wearing the good ole everything is fine mask...and wearing it is tiring/exhausting...cause I have to work so hard at pretending that everything is okay when it is not...everything is so NOT OKAY...which is why I stopped doing everything...because I don't want to pretend that everything is okay when it is not okay...LIFE JUST SUCKS...and I am sick and tired of it!!!
Well? That's all for now...I am going back to bed!
My therapist warned me...that she was worried about what would happen when reality and the depression hit as it would...I worried a little too-then forgot about it.
Well...it took about a week...and now it's back...I spent all day yesterday in bed sleeping...and when I was awake, I was sad...thinking and rethinking about all the negative realities in my life...all the things I have to do and don't want to do...thinking about how tired I am and how I still have a month left in school this semester!!!...thinking about how I haven't done anything that I have to do...UGH!
I just don't know what to do...I am so miserable and depressed that I just want to die...but I can't...I am back to that place where I find no joy in anything...no hope...I am just here...and don't want to be!
While I was on R&R, I was just faking it...I was wearing the good ole everything is fine mask...and wearing it is tiring/exhausting...cause I have to work so hard at pretending that everything is okay when it is not...everything is so NOT OKAY...which is why I stopped doing everything...because I don't want to pretend that everything is okay when it is not okay...LIFE JUST SUCKS...and I am sick and tired of it!!!
Well? That's all for now...I am going back to bed!
Please Don't Give Up................
You Are Greatly Loved And Needed.
((((HUGS))))
We all need a place where we can vent, let it all hang out, and seek support and perhaps some suggestions about how to make things better.
Gentle hugs
Hugs GB
Sometimes it helps for at least a little while.
For me anything that makes me feel better even for a few minutes is worth a try.
I know. I never feel like doing anything most days either, but if I tick ONE thing off the list it helps a lot!
I hope you are able to consider what she says, without accepting everything that she says.
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Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense. Buddha
Are you at all a fan of lists? Sometimes when I'm overwhelmed by all that needs to happen, I make short lists of only 3-5 things that seem achievable. The things on the list can be as simple as 'take a shower.' Sometimes being able to cross a few things off makes me feel accomplished enough to continue.