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Everlasting.Love.
Everlasting.Love.

it feels like everyone has something wrong even if they don't amit it..well


i been crying myself asleep and I have no idea why. like right now im crying.. i very depressed and stressed... i feel i dont belong here .. i feel like if I died right now no one will care.. i hate the fact I can't get all the negative stuff out of my head.. my heart is crumbling to pieces.. the past keeps coming back, all the bad, and all the things i could fix.. like to have a real family and to stop the pain for happening and stop the abuse.. anyway thats all gone but it still coming and hunts me... i have to much doubts ... i don't know if anyone feels the same.. 


maybe im just to young and not smart enough to understand anything.. most people say teenage years are the hardest but some may say adulthood is the hardest. well im still in the teens and my life sucks.. there is soo many reasons why... 

robotnik
robotnik
It's all hard. One day you may have your own family.
Everlasting.Love.
Everlasting.Love.
this stuff been going on since i was 5/6 years old and now it been getting worse now I'm 16 almost 17..
veggiequeen
veggiequeen
Actually, you are right...most everyone does have something wrong with them or their life. the difference is, some people may be forced to face, others chose to deal with their problems and others will try like hell to ignore them (by drinking, doing drugs...)

unfortunately, your birth mom chose the latter route. I was brought up in a very dysfunctional family, but for the longest time had no clue it wasn't "normal". Mom died when I was 15, dad's drinking escalated. Because he wound up with a DUI, we all had to do family counseling. I was so messed up they suggested I do a week long in patient family program of ACOAs. To learn how the actions (or lack of ) from our supposed loving parents would affect our behavior and our lives..... It was like a missing piece of the puzzle explaining why we all were so messed up. I think it could help you understand more if someone did share this with you.

many hugs
finallyawakenow
finallyawakenow
I just read your post and I feel for you. Adults go through hell too. Sometimes we put ourselves there. I have been dealing with painful memories from my past also. What is helping me is something I read; our memories while they can affect us deeply aren’t ‘real’. They are like watching a movie. You can go to the cinema and see one. And it might make you laugh or cry but ultimately, when the lights come on and the credits are rolling you have to leave. The movie is just an interpretation of life not life itself. Life only happens in the now and that is the only time we have any control over. So visit your past movies if you must, just remember that that time is gone forever but your present is all yours. It’s who you are. Not who you were or even who you will be. Hold on to that and feel everything, good and the not so good and hopefully you’ll see the most important person who would miss you; YOU.
Ann93
Ann93
Sorry to hear that you are struggling with depression. It can be difficult if you have some memories from the past that are not very good. Going to a counselor can be helpful for dealing with your emotions and for finding a way to have a positive outlook on the future. Setting some goals for yourself that you know you can accomplish would give you a sense of satisfaction. Being creative is also another way to deal with your feelings. Some people like to sing, draw, write poetry or keep a journal. I hope you can find a way to look forward in your life and find something positive to be thankful for everyday.