I understand completely what you're going threw and know it is the worst feeling in the world. You just need to see all the good and positives things in your life like your kids. They love you more than anything on the planet and i bet you feel the same way for them. I suggest maybe you take up some hobbies and go to the gym to build up confidence. Become a little selfish and go out and treat yourself.

I feel sorry for you. Death of someone who is very close can definitely affect your mind. But, it is very important that you handle those situations in a mature way. Things should continue and you should return to your normal life. It would be better if you deviate your mind to something positive. Do something that gives joy to your heart. Start gardening and adopt a pet. These simple little things can change your mood to a great extend. Find a good friend with whom you can share your feelings. Meditate and pray to God constantly. Read books that can help you to calm down your mind.

You seem to be suffering from physical manifestations of grief. What you are experiencing I would say is normal for someone who just lost a close loved one. I'm so sorry that this happened. Give yourself the space to grief - its a natural process and includes several steps. You seemed to express it perfectly in your post so don't beat up on yourself. I can imagine keeping up with daily tasks is difficult. Can you find a bereavement group in your area? They are typically offered at hospitals. I wish you the best during this difficult time. God bless.

Sorry for you loss. You might be having stomach issues from stress and grief. When i felt grief, I felt depressed. I hope you can talk to your doctor soon. Take care. Take one step at a time. Don't overwhelm yourself.

My heart aches reading your post. I want to start listing off all the things you could try to beat this monster of a feeling stuck inside your head. I was recently there, different symptoms, of course. I wanted to die, to end my life, the pain was so severe this last time. I was paranoid and angry, no one could understand what was wrong with me, especially myself. I was falling to pieces emotionally and physically and mentally. A zombie going through my days afraid and alone. Going through the motions of living in an attempt to disguise my depression.
My stupid, forever depression! It's embarrassing to admit I'm stuck with it, with or without meds. I have to stay diligent knowing the difference between normal depression and depression requiring medical intervention, usually a change in my meds.
So, maybe you go to the dr's and let them know what you've let us know. There is hope and a light at the end of the tunnel. This much I know.
Wishing you all light today and everyday.