Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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xTris 04/19/2016

I used to be on this site a lot in 15. For a year I have been quiet about myself and seemed to be doing better. The past couple of months, however, I've slowly been deteriorating in my mental state. I hit a low yesterday of bursting out into tears while purchasing milk. MILK! I can't get a grip on myself and feel like I'm seeing without seeing. I'm pushing my loved ones away and hurting them in the process of hurting myself. I'm giving up slowly and I can see myself failing. I have two weeks left in my college semester and I'm doing everything I can to make it. With the lack of motivation to even get out of bed in the morning, you can imagine how difficult it is to do homework. I am becoming empty inside and it's only getting worse. I can't control it. I am trying to go to therapy but my therapist is a major bitch. I can't even summon the nerve to tell her I don't want to see her because I'm scared she will say something rude to me. I'm a wreck and I just need to vent.

CopingNow 04/19/2016

I hope you will find a different therapist. You may check to see if there is someone else available. If your therapist isn't helping you need a change. Have you checked at your college? Not sure if you are taking online classes or attending a physical building. You aren't alone! Not sure if you are on med school or not either. Hang in there and really hope out to anyone that can be a lifeline to you.

survivor69 04/19/2016

THERE R MORE THERAPISTS OUT THERE.
DONT STICK 2 JUST ONE.
HAVE U TRIED A KIND HEARTED PASTOR OR A CHRISTIAN COUNCELOR YET?
NO, U R NOT ALONE!
PLEASE FIND A MORE UNDERSTANDING PERSON U CAN SHARE YOUR PROBLEMS WITH.
HOPE AND HELP IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER, HUN'..............
GBU
DRENA B
;-O

xTris 04/19/2016

Thank you both. I just ended things with the woman I was seeing but considering that school (I'm a music major) is so demanding right now, I am going to put off therapy until the semester is over. My college doesn't have that, no. They're pretty cheap!! Thank you again for the kind words. Today is one of my better days but every day is a different experience.

bridgie101 04/21/2016

Music is a terrible thing: you have to be open and raw and sincere to play beautifully - so exposed! - and while you are open and raw and fresh everything that happens can cut right into you.

It takes incredible courage. and it has a high price tag.

But it has a wonderful value also. In short: it's awful but it's worth it.

Go and play something beautiful that makes you feel okay, and lie in bed and just rest for a day. You need to fill your emotional cup; it's empty. 2 weeks left, will be hell, but there's nothing for it. If you don't do the work it will be permanently on your record. You can't get an aegrotat. You can't get a withdrawal. You have to get through this.

And you will.

:)

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