Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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GivingLifeAnotherChance
GivingLifeAnotherChance

So for a while I was feeling a little better, I actually even forgot to check in here for a couple days (sorry about that), then it got bad again. I am so tired; phyiscally and emotionally. I am ready to just scream at everyone in my life but everytime I am about to just look at them and shout I lose my voice. I lose my courage. I just wish someone could tell my mom "hey did you know your 23 year old daughter contemplates suicide everyday". Maybe she'd think differently about the other things she says to me then. Like how unmovitvated I am, or bitchy, moody. Or my dad's favorite line "Why can't you just smile". Music has been my only release lately. I know I need to go back to journaling at least once a day. I still haven't contacted a therapist, I lack the motivation. I feel so weak, and I hate feeling weak. Then I think "I'm not weak, I'm strongest motherf***er in my family". They just have no idea how hard I am fighting for them. Because if I give in to my thoughts, If i gave in completely, they would be destroyed. I wonder if they'd appreciate it if they could live inside my body for a couple days.

LetsTalk
LetsTalk
Sorry you feel this way. I know it is hard when people can't even imagine how you feel. I suffer from depression. My daughter suffers from eating disorder and is a non people person. I use to think what is wrong with my daughter, but until you walk in there shoes you have no idea. I finally decided we both needed counseling and medication. It has gotten better to where I kinda know where she is coming from, but you have to get to someone who you can talk to, and not your family. You need to talk to someone who won't play favorites. Someone who is going to be totally upfront with you no matter what. Hugs
steleo93
steleo93
I totally understand how you feel. My parents used to do the same to me. It was awful. And the only reason I didn't go through with my suicidal thoughts was because I knew they would be the ones to find me. I ended up explaining to my mom what my depression looks like and that I get grumpy and angry and I can't help it. She didn't understand it at first, but she's coming around. I'm sure your parents will too. If you need anyone to talk to, feel free to reach out. :) hang in there
GivingLifeAnotherChance
GivingLifeAnotherChance
Thank you guys ... I really need to find the motivation to find a therapist
tolonely
tolonely
You can also suggest to your parents to go online and look for a site on depression so they can understand what you are going through I know it sucks im married and my husband is not supportive at all and ignores me bc I don't do the things that I used to it's very aggravating
bridgie101
bridgie101
You're being passive. you wait for your parents to see, you wait to be saved. Nobody will save you. The first lesson of adulthood: you have to save yourself. Nobody's going to do this for you.

It's a horrid thing, but true: if you want something done, you have to do it yourself. Even saving yourself from suicide. I begged my husband to get me a counsellor. I told him I was going insane, having a nervous breakdown. He didn't do a damn thing. Nobody will. They don't think it's real. They don't know how to handle it if it is.

So if you want to live, and this is, after all, your life - then get out there, and force someone to help you out. And force yourself to force them. You have to become active, not passive. Passive = death. Active = life. Make those choices that you need made, let go of your unrealistic expectations that are never going to be met, and drag your life into your own hands.

xx all the best.