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It's 3am and I'm in tears

AnonymousUserGirl908
AnonymousUserGirl908

So like last year I fell for this guy, and he left unannounced, of course the connection was there and we both felt it . And now he recently came back in June , so then I did infact you know hit him up again and we started talking and everything was well. So now am panicking and crying like an idiot here because he hasn't been online for 3days now and I'm scared he won't come back again like the last time . And I really am inlove with him . He has the ability to make me happy . He gives me hope .3days, 3days and am panicking , I feel like he is the only one who can always make things better and if he doesn't come back last time suicide will be an option again . If he won't love me and reject me like the others then no one will ever love me and there is no point in me even trying to live or make it in life .

Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
So you have all your eggs in his basket. That is too many eggs in one person's basket my friend. Some are going to get dropped and they will be yours.

That is not how it works. You create your OWN happiness and he his, .. then, your happiness attracts him and his attracts you and you both make each other happy and it works.

What you are doing is not going to work. It will fail. You are doing it wrong.
kplover20
kplover20
3am can be such a lonely time, even if you aren't going through heartache like this. I don't know your situation, so I won't act like I do and just say "it'll get better", but I can tell you things like this are seasons. And the pain won't last forever. I know I've had to get myself through pain like this knowing that there's a reason everything happens, even if I can't see it while I'm going through it. If you have family, friends or maybe a church home that has someone who can be an open ear, maybe that would help. In either case, I'll be thinking and praying for you. Keep your head up!