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Nutellina 03/03/2014

Hello everyone.
At a distance of 9 years from my abortion, now is a very difficult moment for me! Why I'm getting so depress now? After 9 years??? Feeling guilty , depress, I cry every day....I don't know what's happening....It's this normal? I have flashbacks after 9 years. At that time I had to do the abortion because the baby had problems....... But now I feel I do not wanna live anymore!

PinterestFan 03/03/2014

For whatever reason you made the decision, torturing yourself over it now can only hurt you, not serve any other purpose.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

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Nutellina 03/03/2014

I had no choices at that time, this is why I'm not torturing myself. I'm just deeply depress. Like I'm in a shock state after 9 years.....

deleted_user 03/03/2014

That happened to me when I was really young. I didnt understand the brevity of the situation. I was pushed by my boyfriend to have it done because his parents pushed him. The parents even paid for it. Nice people huh? I didnt tell my parents either. Then when I got married and wanted kids I couldnt get pregnant. I thought God was punishing me. Since I have a belief in God and his forgiveness I prayed that God would forgive me and help me to forgive myself. I miss that child and pray I will see him/her in heaven one day but I know Im forgiven and realize I was so young, so naive, didnt really know how serious a situation I was in. My parents would have never let me have an abortion had they known but I had seen two sisters have children out of wedlock and my parents were always helping them and bailing them out. I didnt want that for me. Anyway, forgiveness is key. I would go to therapy to help deal with this and not take it all on yourself alone.

deleted_user 03/03/2014

This is a deeply difficult issue for myself because I am VERY anti-abortion. But I am not here to preach, I am here to help.........

There is nothing that you have done that can not be forgiven. I have to believe that you are struggling over guilt. Hand over that guilt to God. He already knows what you did and he knows the sorrow in your heart - let it all go. He still loves you.

I wish you both all the joy in the world

spacekat 03/03/2014

Hi Nutellina -- your situation, your depressed state and flashbacks, sounds more like PTSD. Have you seen a therapist? Or are you diagnosed? PTSD can be terribly difficult to resolve but talk therapy can help. Please try and get yourself some help as soon as you can. There is no reason for you to continue suffering!! (((HUGS)))

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