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It feels like Fall

Broken_Bridges72
Broken_Bridges72

This morning, I have all the sliders and windows open.  It feels like a fall morning.  I need to run out and buy a new pumpkin spice candle.  I buy one every year and it usually last all year.  Roomie came home from work early this morning and just left again for work.  I havent seen him all week.  There's not much I can do about it, it is what it is.  I went and picked my car up from the dealer yesterday and 1000.00 later it runs like new.  I'm not complaining, cars need repair and I'll be driving this one till its paid off or the wheels fall off.


My car is my life line.  Without it I couldn't get to my job although I'd love not to have the payment every month.  I'm doing some housework this morning.  I had my MRI done.  No traces of cancer but I will need surgury soo er than later as Im being poisoned by toxic chemicals.  Im hoping the insurance picks at least half of this up.  Its daunting.  When it rains, it pours.  Im going to have to start Instacarting again on the weekends to pay these car repairs off.  It's a curse and a blessing.  A curse because I'm not motivated to do anything in the state of mind I'm in, a blessing because it's available for me and might take my mind off things.  Hard to say.  I want so much to go to the desert and live.  Start fresh and a new.  But with all going on with the need for surgury and now the auto bill and not knowing where my jobs going, I see my dream moving further away.  I dont know what to do.

Prycejosh1987
Prycejosh1987
The pumpkin spice candle smells really nice. Having a candle and smelling it can help you calm and relax the mind. Remain focused.
CallMeKim
CallMeKim
Keep up with the little things that you appreciate and are good. I'm glad you were able to get your car situation figured out so you can at least get around to places. While the instacarting might not be the most pleasurable task, you might take a liking to the simple drive from place to place. Personally, I really like driving. I have to watch my mileage since I lease, and each fill up is rather expensive with having a truck, but being able to get out and just drive and feel the wind and hear the traffic is worth it. I wish you good health and a speedy recovery with your surgery! I know I am just an anonymous person, but I'm proud you're getting out and doing things despite it being feeling harder than it should be.
obviousBUTcomplex
obviousBUTcomplex
Take one step at a time. It’s life, there will always be obstacles along the way and you are dealing with it as they come. While you are doing things, make effort so that your mind stays in the present moment. There will still be time when past memory/pain comes back but more you focus on the present and living the life, the less it will affect you gradually over time. Also don’t assume just because you go somewhere far away physically that you will get over something. Change in scenery can help break the cycle but you cannot run away from your own mind. If your mind still stuck in the past, you won’t feel much difference wherever you go. Sometime you just need to shake yourself off, consciously move your thoughts away from past/negativity and into present moment. Instead of focusing on the emotions you feel at every obstacle, focus on what needs to be done to get over it and move forward efficiently. Believe this will all come to pass eventually.