I don't know if this helps, but sometimes people do strong things not because they are strong people, but because they just have to do it.

Try lots of things all the time, still feel like i have no energy but i push and push everyday things just seem bleak.
Ive seen councelloers, physcietrists, taken meds, exercised, read 100 of self help books, tryed to improve myself, jumped 15000 feet out of an aeroplane for a skydive, told people close to me, changed my diet, studied for exams, changed jobs, been to other countries, been in different relationships (not through choice did i keep changing those) been to the drs lots and lots of time, written my goals down, listened to relaxing music, visualised things being better, changed how i breathe, went to a shyness clinic, opened up to my mum (my only close family left who i live with and is very ill) set tasks to do for the day, and after all this i still feel like shit but i guess after reading all that ive done i feel abit proud of myself for fighting this illness in this way just hate feeling this lonely and depressed!

Dude.....slow down! Ya 28 YEARS OLD!!!!! COME ON NOW!!! Seriously....ya need to ENJOY LIFE!! Ya can't change tomm...TODAY!!!! I mean..if I knew then.....what I KNOW NOW....ALL THOSE WASTED YEARS.....WOULD'VE BEEN FILLED WITH HAPPINESS AND LAUGHTER..GOOD FRIENDS..AND GOOD TIMES!!!! Let it loose a lil buddy! I will never take ONE DAY FOR GRANTED! I have been at my lowest with this car accident....in pain..but..SOOOOO HAPPY TO JUST BE ALIVE!!!!!

Hun...it's great to have goals and dreams..its another when they start controlling ya ever move! I hope I am not being too harsh...its just that ya so young and so unhappy..Ya spend so much time being da man...and ya still need to kick back and RELAX...SOAK UP THE SUN..ENJOY GOOD COMPANY.....SPEND TIME WITH YA MOM...DO IT IN MODERATION!!! Stope trying to save the day....IN A DAY!!!!! Tackle one thing a day..and then another...other days..I am not saying quit ya job....just when ya off work...let loose a little! Hope ya get my drift hun! Hugs! years!

hey.....the one thing that helps me when i feel overwhelmed is 5HTP. it's onnly like 7 or 8 dollars from wal mart. i really don't have much else to say other than you will make it through this.

I feel overwhelmed a lot myself and it's usually over things I shouldn't worry about. I like that you typed out all the things you've been doing to try to help yourself and that it made you realize what a fighter you are. The only thing you can do is keep trying -- don't give up. You don't have to be "strong"...just do what you have to do, and if something works, do it more. :-)

If its one thing I've "got" out of my depression is that I no longer care about being a so called weak person. Got to the point where enough is enough. I will just speak my mind now, because they are too alien to even understand. They don't care, they can't see, it is like talking to a brick wall. But there I've said it to them. Out my system (if only).

"after reading all that ive done i feel abit proud of myself for fighting this illness"

YEAH!! It just paid off. That is the idea, .. validate yourself. It takes more for some people than others, .. and no one can say you don't make an effort. You may feel 'bad' in spite of your efforts, .. it is all relative. There are depressed people who do NOTHING but sit on a sofa under a blanket. What you do is essential to MINIMIZE the effects of depression. You are a success story.

Does it cure depression? I can't say that, but it sure is better than hiding in a dark room alone. I know of nothing other than medication, counseling, electroshock therapy, lobotomy, hypnosis and/or EFFORT as things to cure/control/manage/minimize depression and credit goes to those who use these things to their advantage, .. and you deserve a lot of credit because you 'fight' the battle.

I am sorry you have not (yet) accomplished perpetual bliss and still have 'down' periods. Thing is, there is no such thing as perpetual bliss. I would say you are doing 'great' and I hope you continue your outstanding efforts to defeat the monster. Good luck to you.

i happen to agree with woden you must speak your mind

who says you are a week person?????

If you continually tell yourself you are week -- then you are
but
if you continually tell yourself "I can do this -I have the strength " then you will have it.

self talk is one of the most powerful tools we can have,

and remember don't run yourself down and don't listen to people who want to do it for you.

Blessings

You have an impressive list of things you tried, I'd say keep trying and I'll pass one something someone told me.

Do more things that make you happy.

I keep that one in mind and it does seem to help me make better decisions that are more likely to lead to happiness.