Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hello everyone. I haven't been wanting to put anything here because I'm afraid that what I'm dealing with is just me overdramatizing my life, but I don't know because its been over three years of just feeling a constant weight that just feels like its draining me. Ever since I was a sophomore in high school I have been struggling with health issues in the form of a knee injury. I've had multiple knee surgeries after that and just got done with my fourth one. Ever since then, I haven't been able to play the sport I played since I was a little girl. Ever since my first surgery that happened around 3 years ago I just haven't felt myself. Don't want to work out, and I loved working out before but now it jsut reminds me of everyting I can't do so I just don't do it. And this sort of glum makes me just want to sit in my room staring at my wall with the blinds closed and a constant urge to cry all of the time. I just don't have the energy to move, get up, talk with people. Even when everything in my life is perfect or would seem perfect from the outside because I'm usually laughing when I am out in public, I just feel like going somewhere and curling up in a ball and cryihng where no one can see me because I don't want to ruin another person's happiness with my saddness. I'm not sure if what it is is an overwhelming sadness or depression I just know that its sometimes too much to handle and I feel hopelessness from time to time because I don't know what it is.
However to help you make this transition you need to get help. A counselor. Try your school/ college. Tell your parents. Hiding in your room won't help.
This may be psychological or physical or both. I am not a doctor, but I suspect something physical .... possibly hormonal.
It should be clear to you it is not going to just go away and that it is a problem for which you don't personally have a solution. Hand it up to the medical field. It is probably very treatable, but whatever it is, it is bigger than you are.
As WanderingVet said, clearly nothing has really helped you so far, so you might as well try something new. I know this might be uncomfortable, but it's important to at least try. There is so much you could get from it.
I’m very sorry you feel this way. You might consider seeking professional counselling to know whether you are going through depression or not. You can also try different sports. My son really wants basketball but whenever he plays, most of the time he has asthma attack. He tried baseball and it works for him.
I pray that things will go well with you. Keep us posted. God bless.