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Some say I don't have depression, but I don't know what's wrong with me if I am not.
But the way I feel is more or less, generally unsatisfied with life, like we are all just living and keeping busy until we die, I feel a heavy weight in my chest at times, and my vision even get's hazy when I am feeling worse. That is how I generally feel all the time. But it's manageable, I'm no psychiatrist but to me I just like to call it 'mild depression'
When I had 'an episode' about a year ago. I like to call it a 'major depressive episode' but then again, I have no idea what it really is. I was sitting on my couch with friends when all of a sudden I was over come with fear, and a pain in my chest for no reason. I managed to go to sleep and the next day when I awoke I felt like a completely different person. My house had a terrible everything had a terrible vibe to it and I couldn't manage to think about ANYTHING besides how different I felt. I felt I wasn't myself, like I had lost my mind and this cold dead person was walking around in my body constantly reminding myself that I was in this state. I began having sleeping problems and couldn't eat either. At night I managed to feel a little better. I've had 4 'episodes' in my life. I am 21. They all lasted anywhere for about 3-6 months.
Maybe it's depersonilization or or delrealization?
Seem people say what I go through isn't considered depression since I never shut myself in a place and don't do anything. I do the opposite, I yearn for the cure, I do whatever I can to NOT be alone or doing nothing because that's when I start to feel suicidal. If I keep myself occupied I can slightly stand to be alive. I do this even more when I go through 'an episode' but even when I am not I don't like to go long periods of time by myself with nothing to do because sometimes I'll start thinking and it scares me.
What is this? Because it's not 'not wanting to do anything but sit around and rot a way' and it' def isn't an empty feeling. I mean, it's more of a miserable, can't stand to be alive feeling, I mean I feel life is pointless which can be described as empty, but I am def not feeling 'nothing' I am feeling something, which is really bad especially during one of my 'episodes'
But the way I feel is more or less, generally unsatisfied with life, like we are all just living and keeping busy until we die, I feel a heavy weight in my chest at times, and my vision even get's hazy when I am feeling worse. That is how I generally feel all the time. But it's manageable, I'm no psychiatrist but to me I just like to call it 'mild depression'
When I had 'an episode' about a year ago. I like to call it a 'major depressive episode' but then again, I have no idea what it really is. I was sitting on my couch with friends when all of a sudden I was over come with fear, and a pain in my chest for no reason. I managed to go to sleep and the next day when I awoke I felt like a completely different person. My house had a terrible everything had a terrible vibe to it and I couldn't manage to think about ANYTHING besides how different I felt. I felt I wasn't myself, like I had lost my mind and this cold dead person was walking around in my body constantly reminding myself that I was in this state. I began having sleeping problems and couldn't eat either. At night I managed to feel a little better. I've had 4 'episodes' in my life. I am 21. They all lasted anywhere for about 3-6 months.
Maybe it's depersonilization or or delrealization?
Seem people say what I go through isn't considered depression since I never shut myself in a place and don't do anything. I do the opposite, I yearn for the cure, I do whatever I can to NOT be alone or doing nothing because that's when I start to feel suicidal. If I keep myself occupied I can slightly stand to be alive. I do this even more when I go through 'an episode' but even when I am not I don't like to go long periods of time by myself with nothing to do because sometimes I'll start thinking and it scares me.
What is this? Because it's not 'not wanting to do anything but sit around and rot a way' and it' def isn't an empty feeling. I mean, it's more of a miserable, can't stand to be alive feeling, I mean I feel life is pointless which can be described as empty, but I am def not feeling 'nothing' I am feeling something, which is really bad especially during one of my 'episodes'
it sounds to me like you had a panic attack, and that triggered a bout of depression, to protect you from the panic attack (its my own personal opinion that that happens... ive never read it anywhere, and i might be full of crap here)
after a while, the panic subsides enough for you to lift yourself out of the depression... but then it comes back
do you know what triggered your panic attack? its very helpful if you do know... then you can work on not getting panic'd, or triggered by that type of event anymore.