Yup. Been there and done that, probably far too often for one lifetime! Those voices in your head are lying to you, you know. Fight back with the truth! Tell those voices that you are very worthy and that you are priceless in value. List all of the good things about you when you are not down, and take that list out when you are and remind yourself of all the goodness and good qualities of YOU. You are a unique individual, and deserve the best. You deserve the best from others, but even more, you deserve the best from YOU! So, instead of just talking to yourself, start an argument with those voices! Fight back with the honest truth. And the honest truth is that you are a unique and valuable person, both to yourself and to the world. You have the talents, ability and the unique way of thinking that is specific to you alone that contributes something to this world that no one else can. And try treating yourself once in awhile, just because you are special and wonderful and deserving of special things from yourself. It is a great reminder that you are not as worthless as that voice in your head says you are!

Greetings Itzjustme

I hope that by the time you read this you are feeling much better. That you may focus on other things / thoughts that are worthwhile and uplifting.

In your words, I certainly can recall of how trouble my life was. But in your case, it is a good thing that you share your thoughts with your friends here. True, there are "feel-good days", "hell-on-earth days", or just in between, and we do all sorts of things to cope. But let us not dwell on the things that does not define us, always move towards that good spirit that insist you to hope for the better.

You wrote that your inner voice telling you that you are worthless, but that voice does not condole the truth, that everyone is worthy of giving and receiving love; including you. My dear one, I see you as a person who need a warm hug, or words of affirmation to remind yourself. And I am happy to give you that!

Itzjustme. When you hearing that voice in your head again, please be aware that all the things it says does not define of who you are.
Always count your blessings, and always dare to dream for the better! That's what keep most people standing tall.

Have no fear! It can't rain all the time!

Just tonight I was driving home from work and tears just starting running down my face. I also find it hard to keep my mind up with my emotions. It can definatly be a challenge at times. Most emotions are very normal... But, others really should be looked into. I had a nervous breakdown. I was hospitalized for it and I still struggle with it.

It's definatly very difficutlt to deal with so much crap all at once. But, try to stay focused on "you" in all of it.

If it helps to have a shrink or group meetings or even just doing something as simple as seeing a movie... do it....

I hope that you're feeling more "you" soon!

A few months back, that was me. Headache, or brain-fog and all. As my depression has got under control so the mood swings have been more gentle.
Mind you, I had a bad day yesterday, and I'm glad the kids were out, because I told myself to f*** off a few times.

Thank you guys for replying...im much better now, i guess i had to sleep. Im 16 and i talk to my school counselor, i have a therapist but after this psych eval i got that told me i have PSTD and depression i have to get a more intense therapy like the groups, therapy on an once a week basis because of my cutting getting worse....thanks again for answering

I have the rest of the world to tell what I'm doing wrong or how bad I am. Somebody has to be on my side, so I guess I have to be on my own side.

All too Familiar to me.
Ask your Doc about Borderline Personality Disorder, not saying you have it, just too close to my symptoms

yea i was told i have PTSD by a psych...and i read if a person goes a long time without treatment they might develope BPD and i've suffered from PTSD for like 5 years before i was finnaly told..soo who knows but ill definately ask..thx

i wanna stop cutting but when i do do it i get soo upset with myself

Here's good song for you by Helen Reddy. It is called Best Friend:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EquT1cqJzZY with lyrics

Here's another:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9udTTp4gmyY&feature=PlayList&p=286DF89C4453D12A&index=19

aww Keav =]
very nice

I have often had the same kinds of days. I go from happy to sad to angry at myself. I also often tell myself i am worthless etc. When i feel better I know it is not true. I wish you the best in dealing with this.

Does anyone else basically have no control of their emotions

very much like me.......right now suicidal....been like this for days. I have been diognosed with borderline personality disorder. Your symptoms sound close to this. Talk to your dr. .... Love Faith

I have borderline personality disorder, depression , OCD and PTSD.... yep all of them at once. I am doing so much better now after getting the intensive therapy, and getting on some medications that are now working for me. I totally recommend the DBT (dialectical behavior therapy) as it can help with the self harm thoughts, anxiety, and all the other crappy symptoms one can have when they have many co-occuring disorders.

Ask your therapist about DBT... and google around.