Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have suffered from depression for over 40 years. I am now 53 and taking care of my 91 year old father.and my 19 year old son.I don't know how much longer I can deal with this situation.
my son refuses to get a job or a license. Calls me names every day and I am supporting him. I just was recently forced into retirement do do physical injuries. I'm broke.I just closed my business the first of August because of my back problems.
the day before yesterday I was in a horrible car accident. I thought I would never see my children again, I thought that was the end.the drama just never seems to end. It's constant.
I'm the only one in the house that can drive. So I have to take care of everything. My son just ate his room and plays video games all day. I'm trying to run a business, take care of my dad, I have five animals, one that I'm boarding for a soldier. My other son has come home for the summer which is great. But he has to listen to all the fighting. His brothers don't even know how to deal with this situation anymore.
I have some severe back issues tendonitis issues my right arm is pretty well useless. & I am in constant pain. I can't handle the verbal and emotional abuse on top of that. Possibility of taking care of everyone in this household. Instead of help I get cussed out.and go through the fade so fast that in the store everyday. Now I don't have a car, and my computer has crashed. I make a living off of my computer.I'm really in a sink hole now. I can't pull myself out of this depression.The house is falling apartand I don't have the money to fix it.
I just wish I could take a few days and go away and be alone and rest. A few days without being called names having to clean up after somebody.
I wake up everyday in a panic attack and spend the first hour of my day crying. This is been going on for about 5 years. No one in this family wants to cooperate with me in any way. No one will accept the fact that depression is a disease and I can't control it. they would rather call me Crazy and psychotic. That's the most hurtful thing anyone could ever say to me comet and it just makes me cry! I don't know what to do anymore. None of my doctors seem to know how to help me. I don't want to go to the hospital, I can't. I have to take care of these people.I'm the only one. And I'm broken.
I could really use some advice
my son refuses to get a job or a license. Calls me names every day and I am supporting him. I just was recently forced into retirement do do physical injuries. I'm broke.I just closed my business the first of August because of my back problems.
the day before yesterday I was in a horrible car accident. I thought I would never see my children again, I thought that was the end.the drama just never seems to end. It's constant.
I'm the only one in the house that can drive. So I have to take care of everything. My son just ate his room and plays video games all day. I'm trying to run a business, take care of my dad, I have five animals, one that I'm boarding for a soldier. My other son has come home for the summer which is great. But he has to listen to all the fighting. His brothers don't even know how to deal with this situation anymore.
I have some severe back issues tendonitis issues my right arm is pretty well useless. & I am in constant pain. I can't handle the verbal and emotional abuse on top of that. Possibility of taking care of everyone in this household. Instead of help I get cussed out.and go through the fade so fast that in the store everyday. Now I don't have a car, and my computer has crashed. I make a living off of my computer.I'm really in a sink hole now. I can't pull myself out of this depression.The house is falling apartand I don't have the money to fix it.
I just wish I could take a few days and go away and be alone and rest. A few days without being called names having to clean up after somebody.
I wake up everyday in a panic attack and spend the first hour of my day crying. This is been going on for about 5 years. No one in this family wants to cooperate with me in any way. No one will accept the fact that depression is a disease and I can't control it. they would rather call me Crazy and psychotic. That's the most hurtful thing anyone could ever say to me comet and it just makes me cry! I don't know what to do anymore. None of my doctors seem to know how to help me. I don't want to go to the hospital, I can't. I have to take care of these people.I'm the only one. And I'm broken.
I could really use some advice
I relate a lot to what you said. Sometimes family can be an amazing asset but at times family can really take it's toll on you. Especially when you are trying to do everything right but find yourself drained mentally and physically. I have depression and have been thru the ringer with it including the anxiety. My family is one hot mess that takes its toll on me everyday. My life is a mess and I find it very hard to concentrate on the things I need to because I am so overwhelmed. I also have chronic pain from numerous surgeries which doesn't help when the medicine you take makes you tired. Sometimes I say to myself I can't win the war inside of me, I'm so tired of fighting for everything in my life. If something in my life was easy I wouldn't even know what to do. I can't even bring myself to take my two wonderful dogs for a walk at night. This is something that they love and it gives me time to relax and be by myself. I have had people-family throw up in my face all of the mistakes I have made which is hurtful. I can't help I suffer from depression but it certainly doesn't help when you are put down for it, etc. I feel broken too and like I just don't care about things the way I used too. I know that my sister who came to live with me with her daughter has added a ton of stress on me. My sister and I don't see eye to eye on much which makes things very hard. She also can't drive-lost her license for life from too many DUI's. I am spending money on them on which I don't have. I barely eat and sleep due to the stress. The only good thing is that I started seeking therapy. I am married to a man that I am working up the courage to divorce. He isn't good for me and hasn't been for years. He is a great provider but has never been there for me in any other ways. He has damaged me beyond belief. My daughter who is 8 years old had also seen a lot of family fighting and knows that things haven't been right with my husband for years. I just hope everyday I will have the strength to get thru the tough changes I need to make. My sister living with me has never really worked a job and has had men support her for years ( which is really hard for me considering I have worked hard my entire life) I'm 42 years old and she is my fraternal twin. Anytime you want to talk please let me know. I could go on and on but what I'm saying is don't give up and I won't either!
I feel your pain. Do you go to therapy at all?? That might help
I'm here for you anytime :) Thanks Debbie
Is there a possibility of some sort of retreat like at a buddhist temple where you can get some peace and think this thru? You don't have to be buddhist for this but other religions may offer the same. Good luck and take care