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Having a particulary bad toime today, i just came to realize how financially overextended i am. Realizing the only way to continue to afford medication is to become a deadbeat and not pay some of my bills. I feel like a total failure at life and like many admit here thoughts of suicide have occurred. Just seems like I have come to far to give it all up. I had a decent day yesterday finding i can help people. Now i am finding trouble in helping myself. Yes this is a cry for help. I recognize that my problems afre not as bad as someone who has faced abuse at the hands of a parent or partner. I need to find the strength to go on. Manby may come here for answers and support and when i come i try to give only positive comments tyo suggerst there is something better ahead. Wel i hqave come looking for support. Would you stop payiung a number of bills to survive? I do not want to kill myself over bills. As I look around my apartment all i see is moimney wasted on "things". Yes I am at a low point. I have been at this point before in my life and medicated with alcohol and weed. Now at 66 I feel that I am at another crossroad, one that i did not expect to encounter again. I have no one to talk to and this virtual communication is keeping me from going to the hospital, i know how to gaurantee admission. If anyone can give a few kind words they will be pivotal to improving my day. I will make it, I just need some nudging.
It doesn't matter if you haven't suffered the same abuse or had the same struggles as some of the people here. Your hardships are just as important and deserve the same amount of attention.
Please don't hurt yourself, though. I know things are really hard, and I know money is always one of the biggest points of stress in people's lives, but it's not worth hurting yourself over. Is there anyone you can reach out to in your life that might be able to help you out, or at least talk you through this?
It's crazy how many people think you should be in a certain place or have a certain amount of money or whatever at any specific age. I'm about half your age, but I'm at a crossroads in my life, too. And I need support I just don't have.
Wish I had something better to offer, but you do have my support. Please stick around and accept it.
>Would you stop paying a number of bills to survive? I do not want >to kill myself over bills.
I suppose you could declare bankruptcy as a last resort. It won't do your self-esteem any good but you will still be alive. Better poor than dead. In India, you could become a sannyasi. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sannyasa
There is thus absolutely no reason to kill yourself over bills. In fact, that you can't pay could be seen as a reason for celebration...that you are somewhat akin to a sannyasi...about to go on the next stage of your spiritual journey...one of greater renunciation of material things etc. ; )
It's ok to be a failure at life. From a certain point of view Jesus Christ was a failure at life. Apart from a short stint as a carpenter he was jobless for the remaining few years of is life! : O
>money wasted on "things".
Try selling your excess stuff on gumtree or similar. I always get that advice on the internet about making money online. 'sell books, sell your stuff'. I tried but no one responds to my ads. Keep posting ads and perhaps with the right price you'll get some bites. Or, sell to a pawn-type shop?
>medicated with alcohol and weed
as you know both are fairly expensive. put that money in a jar.
>I had a decent day yesterday finding i can help people.
And you will have another decent day again! Your contributions here are important and valuable. You may not get thanks a lot of the time but you may have made a big difference in someone's life.
I hope you now consider yourself nudged : )
I have been irresponsible about cash all of my life and now it seems as if the only way to maintain my car is to walk away from my bills. Yes I feel like a low life. But I do not want to make the adjustment to now owning a car just yet.
I do value myself and a mental health care organization I belong to believes in me. I have not discussed this with any other them for reasons I cannot go into. Now that is later in the day my anxiety is subsiding and I have some relief that soon it will be bed time and that will be a relief from my mental anguish.
Once again, thank you all for reading and caring with your replies. You are all I have now to help guide me through difficult times. This is the internet at its finest. One bill I will continue to pay is to my Internet provider. A small price to pay for the sort of help you have provided.