Depression Support Group
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As every night, I dont manage To turn my brain off. I cant sleep.
Even how hard I try (relaxation, meditation, even drugs To help me sleep...) NOTHING WORLD and I am SO TIRED. The facts are, I have many issues in my life : divorcing parents, bipolar sister, being manipulated by what was my dearest friend, boy relztionship disaster and most importantly: MY SELF ESTEEM...
I've fekt so alone for a year now and add To that a 2 months extreme boredom and you get a disaster ... I have no one that I can count on (#nofamily #friendsThatDontUnderstand) and I think Im depressing....
Tonight my most concerning problem is my ACNE ! 4 years of acné by now and its just getting worse and worse. Last year, I was so in pain and so afflicted by it that I considered myself as a MONSTER and couldnt bear my own look in the mirrors: I colères them all. This month, after being so proud of myself for having it finally disappeared, after 1 year when I managed to fade it , it all came back. I have big scars all over my cheeks, none of the 3 profuctd I've tried by now are working. Im ugly, in pain and DESPERATE. I go back To school in 2 weeks: what can I do ?? I already refuse To go out with my friends because Im ashamed, and in my circle one of the girls who used To be pretty cas acné for 2 months only and now she's gorgeous agqin ... I cant go back to school in my state ... University is for starting going to je not as great as I dreamt if everyone focus on my acné and never santé To be my friend because I dont look good or worse To be my boyfriend !
Of course Ive been reflecting on this : try to calm down and reassure myself with what else I am a part being this "hidden beauty" (lol). In fact il clever, nice and talented in arts etc. But still, I cant find peace in me, I cant sleep, and my acné is getting worse, and my family makes comment about my acné, recalling me how bad it looks, scarubg me even more, blaming me for ils state and dont/cant understand what Il going through becauwe they never experienced it ...
A bit of support and advises would be nice.
Thanks a lot for reading my complaints...
I'm sure you hear this a lot--all this stuff will get easier as you get older but of course what you do now matters. I can only tell you what worked for me on that long, messy, but beautiful journey.
Find refuge. Find a place just for you. Do some kind of art, you need the creative release. You WILL find friends who get you, whether your acne clears up or not. I did, but it wasn't really until I was 22. I hope that doesn't discourage you... I had friends along the way. But as I got older I learned to find MY PEOPLE.
Find any kind of therapy you can. Not necessarily a therapist (but that might be good!) It sounds like you're doing some of that already. Keep trying with meditation and such! Take long, quiet walks by yourself. Get a mantra and repeat it over and over. I started meditating at 18, and I didn't get much from it for several years. The more you do it, the better it works!
You will find yourself. It's probably best to get away from your family in the healthiest way possible. Try not to let so much rest on your skin. I know, easier said than done. The friends you find now, though, while your skin is a mess, will be genuine friends and you will know it.
Anyway I hope I don't sound too condescending... I've been reading a lot of Cheryl Strayed and she has this whole motherly thing going on... I'm not a mom lol. Please LOVE YOURSELF. Best wishes to you!
I have kp disease, which is a disgusting self esteem destroying skin condition. I also have bad acne. Have you never tried tanning? Tanning always worked wonders for my breakouts. I think it's worth risking skin cancer to feel more sexy and gorgeous. Also when I was a teenager my doc prescribed me tetracycline. It's a pill that gets rid of your acne. Oxy benzoyl peroxide cream worn under makeup helps. When I was a teenager I had very bad chest acne that scarred horribly. When I finally got rid of it, I used bio oil every day after a shower and it got rid of the scars completely. It helps with stretch marks too. They also make a gel called scar gel...scar zone maybe? It works good if you want something less greasy.
Honestly i am a major depressive because of my situation. but i dont sleep at night because of anxiety of how to handle the impossible situations i'm stuck in.. and especially when there is no visible way out.. i'm up ALL night because i cant think about anything else.
Before i started anti anxiety along with depression meds.. i would be awake for 24-30 hours at a time and then finally pass out from exhaustion and sleep for a day. and not because i was trying to stay awake.. loaded up on caffiene.. or something equally as crazy.. strictly because i would lie in bed and try to sleep but never be able to shut off my mind worrying about all that crap.