Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have ups and downs... been diognosed with PTSD before from my childhood. ive worked so hard to make my life work ,to be a part of life. its a daily struggle. ive recently suffered the loss of a couple relationships, and i cant pull myself out of this. i should be happy, or at least content. im a full time college student, and single mother, and i have a decent job. but im afraid. i feel myself going down, usually the cloud will lift. but its not lifting this time... its getting worse. last time it was this bad, i nearly destroyed my life. i get in self destruct mode. i have yet to find a medication that works... and im afraid to take them. cause if you have ever truly studied psychology you would know that alot of it is a bunch of poop. ive tried counseling, and its too expensive right now. and i usually end up feeling like im smarter than my counselors. i feel like im losing myself, and everything i have worked for the last time this happened this bad... and now i have a daughter, i cant lose it again. she deserves a stable mommy. we are all each other has. i cant stop it. im stuck in self sabotage mode. i dont even know why im writing this. i know there is nothing anyone can tell me that will help... i just hope. something, anything. people dont understand. im an expert at hiding it. but im drowning in this cloud. the nightmares are taking over my sleep. i try so hard, but im so tired of fighting. talking doesnt help. journaling doesnt help.
and even if i could afford it right now... medication is out the question until they actually have a way to measure the neurotransmitters in the brain.. they can only theorize what is wrong an shoot in the dark. they know it helps some and hurts others. i cant take that risk, nor can i afford it. i dont know what to do.
and even if i could afford it right now... medication is out the question until they actually have a way to measure the neurotransmitters in the brain.. they can only theorize what is wrong an shoot in the dark. they know it helps some and hurts others. i cant take that risk, nor can i afford it. i dont know what to do.
It's only a step or two away from giving up. You don't want to do that !
All of the options you are dismissing CAN And WILL help you, but you have to keep trying.
You are not un-reachable. You are Not Un-Help-able :-)
Getting well is work :-) Please don't give up.
I also thought I was smarter than anyone else, but no, I just had more information on myself than others do. So, they have to guess and I don't. No amount of education can help that. It just takes time to get to the things in life that are really affecting you. Somethings you yourself don't even know.
As for meds, well I am one that take them. I'd take any shot in the dark that may help me. If it had/.has bad effects I just tell my doctor and he changes the medication. It just takes awhile to find the right one.
If that doesn't help for you then their are millions of self help books out there that can help. Maybe you could find one or two that will help you. I did/do alot of reading too.
If this sounds like bitching, it is not. Just a genuine concern for someone who reminds me of myself.
Big hugs x