oh, hun, i;m sorry you feel like this. remember people here care, i care about your life. I want you to remember that.

thank u i hate this feeling, im so sad and cant shake it.

i understand i'm getting really frustrated with feeling sad right now..
but think of every reason why you should be happy?

My niece she loves me so much I could never do that to her

Everyday is hard. Go to work and be around people..... I find the more I stay alone, the more depressed I get. I am afraid to go to work tomorrow....but I know once I get there and get going, the day will fly by....

always remember her

I know it's hard, but just keep telling yourself that tomorrow will be better. Even this afternoon may be better. The more you tell yourself how bad you feel, the worse it gets. Try just one postive statement and keep it in your thoughts all day so you don't focus on the feeling of dying. I feel that way quite often, but that day does pass and tomorrow is a new chance to make it a better day. Hope this helps and I hope you feel better.

it is raw courage keeping you alive, and i completely respect you for that.
i think it doesn't take much guts to kill yourself, but it takes the strength of a warrior to continue on when hit with these awful mental disorders and depression.
please, please consider in-patient. it sounds very much like you are a danger to yourself.
(((((((hugs)))))))

still here and trying

I am glad you are still here.

why do you have all this pain and sadness?