Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i have nothing in my life. I have my parents and my family. Everyone expects me to be happy because I have that. Wrong. I have no friends. I'm not talented at anything. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm desperate. And no one likes me. I'm not asking for someone to tell me to keep going. I'm asking for someone to be there for me. I will be there for anyone. I just want someone to be my friend and respect me as much as I respect them.
They say ' be the change you want to see in the world' - do the act as an end in itself, not a means to an end. That's is to say that you don't treat people well so that they can treat you well, you treat people well because it just feels better, harmony always feels better.
Sometimes, we don't so much respect others as ENVY them. We often shrink away from seeing ourselves as envious because it has such a bad rap, it's one of the seven deadly sins, etc. However, this phenomenon, ENVY has a POSITiVE, CONSTRUCTIVE, HEALTHY side too that we don't often hear people talking about, alerting us to what we value, what we would like to aspire to, emulate, etc.
The inner 'sting', that 'ouch' feeling when you see a quality, a life or way of being that really kind of feels like it takes hold of your mind, I want, I want, I need, I need, kind of thinking is actually an opportunity to really honour that you want to develop the QUALITY within you.
I'm a twin, so naturally, we got split up into ' who's the bad one? Whose the good one?' - because I tended to be more feisty, loud, I was deemed the 'bad one'', bad girl. Well, this hurt. It limited me. I felt split from my wholeness.
and I punished myself and others for this pain I was feeling for internalizing the message 'bad girl' when all I wanted was to be seen as a good girl too!!
It took time for me to start allowing myself to own the whole spectrum of my personality without immediately associating a quality with my sister (as if she 'owned' the quality of goodness or something) But I did have to be humble enough to give credit where credit is due - that her goodness in comparison to my pain hurt but the inner tension of knowing that I too could be healthy and good motivated me cultivate those qualities within myself.
This is the same for everybody; it happens between best friends, with our parents, with our teachers, with our peers, really, everywhere.
I'm always here if you want to chat, need some support or somebody to help you digest difficult feelings. Just a message way. :)
Maybe this didn't speak to your current feeling / mood; I do hope though even in a small way, it resonated.
Xo