Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I feel so miserable with my life, nothing makes me happy, and I don't have a will do to anything.
I feel like my friends are fake bitches, they only remember me when they need something or I am the last option, eg. a friend invited me to go on a boat trip, then later I found out I was her last option as everyone she asked before declined due to being busy..
Only time people come to me is when they need something, if not, I don't exist. I am getting old, I realized in less than 6 months I will be 26 .. and time is flying, and I'm getting more and more depressed and miserable.
I started this at 15 .. eleven years have passed, and no, no one dares to tell me it gets better because it doesn't .. it only gets worse..
I have thought and attempted suicide before but I kinda decided to postpone that for now, instead, I prefer to self injury, neglect myself, and I have this sick feeling of revenge where I feel the need I have to hurt and hurt and hurt again each and every one who has hurt me in this life ..
I basically hate everyone, aside from animals, cause these are the only creatures that still can make me feel anything good. But humans, no .. I hate girls for being bitches, for putting me down, for ruining my self esteem, I hate my mom for being such a whore, I hate men for being such disgusting liar bastards, I hate my grandmother for making me her slave and for treating me like I am a piece of garbage...
And I hate me for allowing all of them to treat me this way, I truly wish I was never born.. she should have shoved me down the toilet when I was born, thrown on the trash, I don't know, any of those would be better than the life I live and have lived for nearly 26 years..
I feel like my friends are fake bitches, they only remember me when they need something or I am the last option, eg. a friend invited me to go on a boat trip, then later I found out I was her last option as everyone she asked before declined due to being busy..
Only time people come to me is when they need something, if not, I don't exist. I am getting old, I realized in less than 6 months I will be 26 .. and time is flying, and I'm getting more and more depressed and miserable.
I started this at 15 .. eleven years have passed, and no, no one dares to tell me it gets better because it doesn't .. it only gets worse..
I have thought and attempted suicide before but I kinda decided to postpone that for now, instead, I prefer to self injury, neglect myself, and I have this sick feeling of revenge where I feel the need I have to hurt and hurt and hurt again each and every one who has hurt me in this life ..
I basically hate everyone, aside from animals, cause these are the only creatures that still can make me feel anything good. But humans, no .. I hate girls for being bitches, for putting me down, for ruining my self esteem, I hate my mom for being such a whore, I hate men for being such disgusting liar bastards, I hate my grandmother for making me her slave and for treating me like I am a piece of garbage...
And I hate me for allowing all of them to treat me this way, I truly wish I was never born.. she should have shoved me down the toilet when I was born, thrown on the trash, I don't know, any of those would be better than the life I live and have lived for nearly 26 years..
One thing I have realized is that when a girl and her mom don't get along it is always tough for the girl...the mom doesn't get affected as much. If I were feeling better I would gladly put the ones that wronged you in intensive care for a year and they would leave in a wheelchair. I firmly believe some people, even after a severe beating just never learn or even try to understand how their actions affect those around them.
I sincerely hope you can get past this negative crap and are able to surround yourself with people that really care...you have a right to be happy. :)