I wish I had the guts to kill myself. I am too scared of failing and having to deal with the hospitalization/guilty/worry that would follow a failed attempt. If I had a gun I would just shoot myself and get it over with. I don't know any other sure ways. I think about suicide constantly. Nothing will get rid of these thoughts and the depression. I can't live like this anymore. I hurt so deeply and feel so alone. I just want to be able to say goodbye.
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