WELL ANOTHER DAY OF WANTING TO FUCKING DIE. MY NEW DOCTOR PUT ME ON PROZAC TODAY. I AM HOPING THAT IT HELPS ME OUT. I REALLY DON'T TRUST MEDICATIONS ANYMORE. I HAVE BEEN ON WAY TOO MANY AND NONE OF THEM HAS HELPED ME. BUT ANYWAYS. I NO LONGER NEED TO BE ON THIS EARTH. NOBODY CARES NOBODY LISTENS ANYMORE. (NOT MEANING ANYONE ON HERE) IT JUST SEEMS TO ME THAT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO HELP ME ARE JUST TURNING ME AWAY. HONESTLY I SHOULD NOT BE HERE RIGHT NOW. I SHOULD BE IN THE PSYCH HOSPITAL. I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE A FEW WEEKS AGO. I SLICED MY ARM ALL TO HELL GOT STAPLES AND STITCHES AND JUST THE OTHER DAY I TOOK A RAZOR BLADE STABBED MYSELF IN THE LEG AND JUST PULLED AND PULLED CUTTING MYSELF. I GOT SOME STITCHES IN MY LEG NOW TOO. I WENT TODAY TO GET THE STAPLES OUT OF MY ARM AND THE MORON OF A DOCTOR WAS JUST RIPPING THEM OUT AND I HAD TO GET STITCHES PUT BACK INTO MY ARM BECUASE HE RIPPED OPEN THE CUT ON MY ARM AGAIN, WOULD NOT STOP BLEEDING FOR I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG. HE SENT ME TO THE ER TO GET THE STITCHES PUT BACK IN. BUT STILL I WAS DOING ALL OF THIS HOPING THAT I WOULD BLEED TO DEATH. I USED A BUTCHER KNIFE ON MY ARM. BUT OH WELL APPEARANTLY NOBODY CARES IF I DIE OR NOT. ALL OF THIS IS HOW I KNOW THAT I AM A BURDEN TO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING THAT I COME INTO CONTACT WITH. BUT HEY WHO CARES ANYMORE RIGHT?? IT'S JUST JENN. RIGHT? YES IT IS RIGHT. I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS BUT I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. I NEED HELP AND DON'T KNOW WHERE OR WHO TO TURN TO ANYMORE.
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