Sounds to me like you have to prioritize and get into time management. You're doing more than what your body can handle. Any chance of cutting back on your marathon training? Something has to break somewhere.

i never went to the first class of my college for 5 years, used to hangout in the library (to read newspaper) or at the near by tea center or samosa shop, i cleared all my exams, i did study the entire question bank 2 times the day before the exam, i mean exams were conducted on alternate days some times with holidays in the middle. now every time i read the book i repented not reading it before, because it was good, i could have learned more from it, but i didn't

now what is the purpose of reading 18 hours a day, without concentrating, never read during the night, read in the morning at 5 to 7am, sleep at least 8 hours a day, and failing exams (f*** it).

the weirdest thing even for me were my friends, who drank beer, a day before the exam and stayed up all night. they got more marks than i did (i mean i just cleared them, but their scores were high).

Moral: different people have different ways of doing things, i cannot say that i am dumb because they did it better than me

you are never a failure, this school or college part of your life is just a pebble among the stones, the real trouble starts when you have a wife and you have to do a job (you cannot escape from both)

so Manage your time, sleep at least 8 hours a day, drink lots of water, read in the morning, go for a jog.

by the way half of the engineering students have backlogs in my country, but they clear them all and pass with above 60% before they are out of course (reason it takes them 3 years to understand, how to crack it). so you are in your junior year, give it some time, let the onlooker think that you are dumb as f*** (less pressure).

Sounds like you're exhausted and your body is telling you. Can you stop marathon training to get more rest and focus on your grades and get to school on time? You're pushing yourself too hard.

P. S. Overall high school junior year is a pain in my neck :c

You are putting way too much pressure on yourself. I did that in high school and It definitely was not worth it. Find some activities and friendships for enjoyment. Don't make everything a competition.

Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem... Your not always going to be a junior and if you have to much on your plate go talk to your counselor and see about dropping one of your advanced classes or next semester. Or maybe stop training for the marathon and focus o school? You have to make a choice if its to much. But killing yourself isnt going to solve anything, you will be permanently dead.

Rachel is right. why make a decision on some thing that wont last for ever? aside from that death is nasty. you will piss and crap your self and if some one doesn't find you for a few days your body will bloat and the gases will eventualy make you go pop and thats a mess. cops or coroner wont clean it so your stickin your family with the clean up. I think the easyest thing for you to do is cut back on whats to much and slow down!