I am so tired of my life right now. I have bipolar and depression. I have not been on my meds for a month or so because my dr keeps changing my appointments. I have been under a lot of stress lately. I am having a hard time keeping up with the housework because I have so much to do. This boy (in his early 20's) that lives down the street has been causing a lot of problems with us lately and we don't know why. We don't even know him. Anyway, a few days ago he called the police on me because my tags on my car were expired. My car was broke down and I just didn't have the money to pay all the stuff I had to pay to get it legal. I am going to school right now and I don't have a job. They came and towed my car. Then tonight my I had one of my rare spells (triggered by smashing my hand) and I started yelling at my husband. So he decided to call the cops and say we were fighting. So they came and barged in the house w/o permission (they knocked, but walked right around my husband when he answered.) They didn't believe my bipolar and no meds story, they saw that the house was messy and threatened to call CPS on us. I am trying so hard to keep my house in shape, but it's hard with my problems and having a disabled husband and 3 young kids. I take so good care of my kids. This is not the first time I have had them called on me. People around here think that's the best revenge. It is so wrong. I am so scared. I love my kids more than anything. If I didn't have them I would have killed myself a long time ago! If I lose them I am going to kill myself for sure!!!! I am trying to type this while sitting here crying my eyes out and hyperventilating. So if there is typos sorry. I don't know what to do. I can't pull myself together enough right now to get the house spotless. I just wanna die!!!!